my life.

2009-06-25T00:48:00.003+08:00

been real busy, so this post came super late and will be super short.

we won treasure hunt!

for more pics, go to http://s41.photobucket.com/albums/e258/dedricktan/

sadly, school reopens on schedule. haiz.

2009-06-08T09:56:00.003+08:00

went down to marina barrage yesterday with mr koh, wai choong and zhao yuan again, for the last round of the treasure hunt. we're supposed to describe marina barrage in 500 words on the environmental issues and the chemistry involved. so yea, we had to make a trip down to marina bay.

marina barrage dint turn out too bad, i rather thought it was quite fresh and interesting, compared to newater, which is like ZZZ. so basically, its a dam built across the marina channel to separate the seawater and freshwater in the reservoir. not gonna go into the details, cause u can go check it out yourself.

we met at marina bay mrt station. thought wu and i were going to be late, but actually, mr koh and zhao yuan were taking the same train too =P anw we couldn't find the place to take the shuttle bus at first, and spent like 10 mins walking around before we found the stupid bus stop. AND the weather was SUPER HOT. marina barrage has this long stretch which you can walk on, the view's not really breathtaking but still good enough for you to relax. but it's actually quite interesting to see a huge stretch of a life-size dam. o and it turned out that there was actually a "family day" going on at the barrage when we went. we went to the 2nd floor, to this "sustainable singapore" gallery. and it was air-coned woots! =) the gallery was really very good, a lot better than most galleries in singapore, esp newater. there was this damn cool screen-slider kind of thing, where you could slide it to the date which you want, and it will play a video of the date. and i think what makes it best is that there's this small-sized marina barrage in the gallery which gives a demo of what the barrage does.

then, we went to the roof of the barrage. the roof is laid with grass, which is quite unique. but the whole area is HUGE. we went to this place with all the solar panels, the "Solar Park". after that, we went to the "family day" fair thing, but actually to buy drinks + candy floss + play some games XD. i think we left marina bay at around 2+, then after a long time of deciding, they decided to come to my house to play. mr koh wanted to try tennis out lol, apparently he says he was "coached" before =P but too bad, we only played tennis for like 15 mins, but we went to play table tennis and badminton. and then wu and mr koh did their CCC, and they left for wu's hse at around 7+.

for photos, go to http://s41.photobucket.com/albums/e258/dedricktan/ .

2009-06-04T18:39:00.002+08:00

went to newater visitor centre at sungei bedok yesterday, for round 4 of the treasure hunt. actually, wu, zhao yuan and i were supposed to go on tuesday, but then i had to meet mr chong in school for the paranormal stuff, and we took real long. then, wu and zhao yuan took quite some time to get to newater so they were too late to join the last tour slot of the day. so, in the end, i went alone yesterday, but it was my 2nd time there, so i could still find my way.

anw, our task was to take a unique pic of one or all of the processes of water purification and do a short write-up of no more than 50 words. yea, so i SPAMMED photos. i went for the last tour, the 4 pm slot and the guide was this nice lady. i think there were a few other locals in the group (in the hunt too?? lols), one pair of europeans and lots of malaysian kids. to be honest, i don't think the visit was interesting la, mayb because i've already gone there before. and it so happens that exhibits for water purification were the most dull among everything else. so i had to try all sorts of weird angles to try to make the pictures unique. and the kids were always staring at me when i tried out all sorts of angles, like squatting on the floor, putting the camera on the ground XD yea, and i think one of the more interesting ones i took was of reverse osmosis. it's this long long tubes door, so i put my fingers through them to show the fact that it can filter small particles (ok its lame!) and you can take a look at the pics to see how it turned out =P
oh, but there was this very very nice exhibit/statue/sculpture of raindrops and flowers. too bad it wasn't water purification.

http://s41.photobucket.com/albums/e258/dedricktan/ , there's a total of 100 pics =P

2009-05-31T00:04:00.002+08:00

JUNE HOLS!!! =))

yup, it's finally here! but NO - it does not mean rest time! gah... can u believe it? we have like 7 projects to do this hols, not counting all the homework and other random stuff...so why am i slacking now??? shit.

ok anw, went for ncw treasure hunt at nus today. team of 4 with mr koh, wu and zhao yuan. tried out circle line frm my hse to serangoon (wu's dad fetched us to nus), it's great and fast, but then i still hv to walk quite a long way.

had to reach nus at like 11+ to register. then, we went to watch the fact or fantasy quiz, there were 30+ teams, but RI only sent 3 teams from chem RA. mr ong was there too. quite interesting quiz, but after awhile it got boring. anw, our race started at 1+. round 1 was this crossword puzzle where we were supposed to find at least 20 names of elements among 40 in a crossword puzzle. we took 4 mins but dats because the first 1-2 mins were wasted on getting a pen lols. ok next, for round 2, we went to this lab where we were supposed to do a few experiments and answer questions. this round was real interesting! okay, i think there were around 8 experiments. ksp was a great help but even he got stumped at sum point in time.

i rmber there was elephant's toothpaste but we didn't do it cause there's no point. question was identify the ingredients (H202 and KI). learnt before in school haha.

there was also this solubility and immiscibility thing where you get different coloured layers, different layers with organic solvents and water and one more thing which i forgot, and also solubility of stuff in organic solvents n water, like iodine in organic solvent to be dark purple. but, we had to use chloroform and i spilled a few drops on my skin! shit carcinogenic thing. there was also this acetate salt too but i cant really rmber cause i know i was quite worried after the chloroform spilled de first time and my hands got quite a bit shaky XD even de prof said "your might wan to get someone else to hold the testtube". and i found out that working under a fume hood is actually quite hard, esp when de cover is down. i tink i should try to get used to it, might be doing a lot of it for my scsf proj.

there was also this slime thing with borax, we were supposed to describe the thing formed. actually for this one, initially we described it as "gel" like but then, some professor there hinted that the title of the experiment was a clue. you see, the title was "gooooeeey smile", and smile's an anagram for slime. but after that, the professor said that "gel" was de better scientific answer compared to the layman term of "slime". haha with mr koh, obv got better scientific answer lol. mr koh was of great help actually, i think we relied on him a lot, not jus in de chem part, but also coz he's de only one who knows de way arnd nus XD

nxt experiment was identify an unknown solution (which was actually quite easy - its potassium permaganate), actually de experiment is just QA with ppt of sulphur from sodium thiosulphate and redox with KMNO4 as the OA. wasted sum time there initially though, because the description of the experiment was wrong.

nxt one, we did this filtration of chilli, and the filtrate we added KI, and we got a YELLOW PPT. shocked?? yep chilli has lead, can u believe all this while when you were eating your french fries with chilli, you're actually consuming lead?? lol ok luckily, after we clarified with de prof, he said that chilli in singapore doesnt hv lead, so dun worry =)

this experiment was COOL! oscillating reaction. solution with hydrogen peroxide, sum iodate, sulfuric acid, sum manganese salt and i tink malonic acid. jus go search oscillating reaction in youtube or something, you'll know what we saw. i took a video too, but i wont post it yet until i get de photos which zhao yuan took today. anw yea, so basically the solution keeps changing colour on its own, and its damn nice. why can't we do this kind of reaction in school as demos haiz... we'll be alot more interested dur classes

i can't rmber the rest of de expts.. mayb i'll update when i remember..
round 3 was actually quite easy, though i tink we screwed it up. just go get a picture of this long crystal, go to a statue on 'waves and particles' and say what chem theory it reminds us of, and lastly, go to a poster and identify and copy de structure of a molecule shown on de poster. this was where we SCREWED UP. we looked at the wrong thing and thought it was methane, when actually it was supposed to be the WATER molecule on the ncw poster. stupid. okay, that's the end of rounds 1-3, will be doing rounds 4-5 in de nxt few days. but rounds 1-3 were FUN. very very fun. great chance to work with mr koh, wu and zhao yuan. really enjoyed myself =D

so we ended quite early actually cause we were running everywhere dur de hunt. im serious.. running. din't manage to take video of mr koh running XD but he was always at the front. u'll laugh like sum mad pig when you see him running =P slacked awhile at some place (i dont know my way round in nus) with aircon, and we chatted for awhile. and we finally decided to go partyworld ktv at clementi. quite ex though for today, since it's weekend. but still, its only once in a while. and i had a GREAT time singing with wu, mr koh and zhao yuan! fun and destressing XD

and before i end, i tink nus is really more rundown than i expected. and nus is super dangerous lols. but thats only when you cant go through a place because its locked, but that happens quite often, so well... anw we had to cross certain places by going the AIRCON WAY... aircon way as in walk on dangerous ledges with the aircon things on it and i'm serious. its like nus become an obs site or something. yea and you'll be without a harness. o and we saw these ppl doin this cool experiment. using water to start fires. they were testing diff mixtures of metals? i dunno, dey said they couldn't reveal. anw, then one guy would spit water at the mixture and de metals get ignited. quite amazing.

today's been an eye-opening and fun experience =)

2009-04-25T22:49:00.002+08:00

22 days since i last blogged!! AHAHA =P (havent hit the 23 day mark yet)

thurs was track finals! at cck stadium. went there after school. nothing really fresh honestly, the same every year haha. except this year, we got owned haiz.

o new record for b div guys 100m! very spectacular. 10.90 omg by sharir from sports sch.
i remember before the race, someone was beside me saying, "eh sharir going to win the race right?" and then wzy suddenly became abit indignant, "eh hello.. people going for record pls"

anw, our relays were screwed up. VERY screwed up. let's start with c div 4X100 relay. first runner aizat, he's very fast for a sec 1, so it was a good start. went to iman next, still in the tops. but iman didn't pass that well to ezra, so we started to lose out a bit. and last runner was ding hui. ding hui has a really fast start, or he started too early (i dunno). in any case, he went off and ezra couldn't catch up. so in the end, ding hui had to stop abruptly before the 10m mark and then ezra collided with ding hui, and passing was totally screwed. yea u get the idea. but still good quick thinking by ding hui to stop, or else we would have been disqualified.

now to b div 4X100 relay. first leg was jethro. nice start, but i think he isnt in the top of forms now, so he wasnt that fast. next was calvin, no problems here. but we screwed up at fukai, who was the 3rd leg. for sum reason, calvin was alr up to fukai, but fukai hadn't gone off yet. looked like he was dreaming or something haha. anw, so calvin almost collided with fukai (yet again! why did it happen in both relays??) and then fukai sped off. last runner was yeong yang, he was good. we still didn't make it to the tops but he can't be blamed, since he replaced syafiq in the last minute.

at the end, we got 6th for both C and B div. rjc got 1st! well that's expected =D well done! next year, i'm sure raffles track will do even better! and we got a new track shirt again! i'll post pics of it if i remember or if i have time XD

2009-04-03T21:17:00.005+08:00

yesterday was quite a scary day. (all identities will not be disclosed) ever encountered a situation where someone experienced memory loss? yea that's wad happened to one of my closest friends.

the story starts in PE, which was 2nd period. inventing games module, so the game was this dog-and-bone cum basketball thing. each group had like 6 people, and everyone had a number 1-6. then numbers will be called and those called will rush to get the frisbee (so it's like dog and bone) and then play something like basketball after that where you have to shoot into the area to score. so, my team had 6 people and no. 1 was called. he chionged to the middle to get the frisbee and BANG! he crashed head-first with another classmate who came chionging too. it all happened so fast. i think he recoiled and collapsed to the ground and his head hit the ground. both of them seemed quite ok at first, nothing too bad. just bruises and a bit of pain. after awhile, we all thought they were fine. then after that, no. 1 seemed very blur and confused as the game continued on. somehow, he just kept forgetting that he was number 1 and i repeated it a lot of times to him, but somehow he just kept forgetting. i remember how he was suddenly so confused while playing, unsure of which side to score and who were his team members. it doesnt sound much here, but its freaky seriously.

i think after some time, we realised that the problem was actually quite severe. he kept forgetting things that we told him just a few minutes before and he seemed very lost. i even got irritated and raised my voice abit at him. kept thinking he was tryin to pull off a joke! sigh. why didn't i believe him?? i should have known something was really wrong. after that, adrian chng came in and we started questioning him seriously. he couldn't even remember that it was the 2nd period. things were gettin really serious. short term memory loss! i was so afraid that he'd lose all his memory. what if he forgot the people around him? i din't want to lose such a good fren like him. that was the first time in my life i experienced the feeling of being afraid of losing someone. really really worried.

we sent him to general office after that. questioned him more and realised he forgot a lot more things. i tell you, we were seriously freaked out and worried at that time. you don't know how it feels when your friend starts losing more and more of his memory right in front of you. you'd never know when he will look at you with a blank face and wonder who you are. the scary thought was stuck in my mind, i jus couldn't take it away. haiz. ambulance came and paramedics rushed him to sgh. sigh. kinda traumatic.

after school we all went to visit him at sgh. found out he took a CT scan (brain scan) and luckily it showed no problems. but i guess de problem was still quite serious, so they left him in the observation ward at A & E. i think more than half of our class went to visit him, only 3-4 people allowed each time, so we kinda rotated. zz dat stupid idiot, still in such a good mood when everyone was so worried. i went in with ernest, linjin and java. he still couldn't recollect anything that happened in the day gah. luckily, he only forgot that day's events but his long term memory was still there. still remembered all of us. *huge sigh of relief* anw, we left at around evening. but i sms msn convoed him at night lol, well imagine how lonely you'll be in the hospital. was happy to see that he was still his normal self. and he got discharged at around 10 pm.

after all this, it just dawned upon me that everything in life was just so fragile. i could lose the people around me so easily, i really have to treasure them even more now. my friends, my family and the people around me. i don't want to experience a day when i regret not having treasured them before i lost them. sigh. imagine what would happen if he really lost all his memory. he'd be like an empty shell, he'd forget everything, his school, his friends, his life, everything. it is a scary thought.

hope he's hvin a good rest today and is still alright. god bless him. hope he recovers soon =D

2009-03-31T22:55:00.001+08:00

sometimes i don't know whether what i'm doing is worth it.

2009-03-27T22:21:00.003+08:00

LONG time since i posted XD (wait march 2 was before march hols rite?)

ok been quite busy, honestly. not counting de march hols, which i pretty much slacked away. as in really really slack, can you believe it, i woke up at least after 12 pm everyday dur de march hols =P good life eh? better not let ksp see this, or else he'll pile me with more stuff. he and his stupid cats thing zzz.

some RANDOM things which happened in march hols:

1) woke up at 3 pm on one of the days (which means only cooked lunch at 3+ pm) + overslept and missed outing with frens! sigh.

2) egg exploded in my face and causing burn marks! (should have paid more attention dur physics lesson) someone tell me how to heal burn marks! now i have like two small unblending white patches on my face!

3) ksp's reactivity series video was HILARIOUS.

4) stoned at orchard with frens because we din't know where to shop

5) played pingpong with giff and started thrashing him already =P

6) finished watching two drama series! lol

7) watched hitman reborn up to the latest episode! woots KHR is AWESOME! o and finished trinity blood too! it was epic!

8) saw mr magendiran (senior DHM) at the GYM. wow. never expected him to be there. but he was his usual friendly self, i love him and mr kwok. and at least got to chat with him a lot and know him better. but one thing i jus find kinda unsettling is his legs. they're like ish's. and also like the gym coach's too. hmm. doesn't matter if you dont know what i mean. no offence anw.

9) got to know a few PSLs from other schools! quite interesting to learn about the psl systems in other schools.

10) flipped thru my file and found THIS.

this is what happens when you drip sulfuric acid on your paper.

anw term 2 started. had ss test and chem oba on monday. GAH. but i tink i did quite well =D and then maths ta on tues. did well too.

and i've finally resumed training properly! though in totally LOUSY form. gosh i felt super heavy when i ran, like some elephant. mayb i should gym abit lesser and run abit more. sian now lagging behind everyone by so much, i've gotta keep up.

anw, some stuff which i've been busy with aren't doing too bad though. class cip has been great! FINALLY managed to communicate with the 3 centres from the salvation army and got 2 eager replies and waiting for the last one. looks like we'll hv to start work soon, i can't wait! as for de science camp thing, haven't been doing much for it, cause i hvn't been given much news yet too. o and talking about science, congrats to wu, xiuzhen and welras for getting 1st prize for their science microspheres toluene dunno what thing XD! congrats to ming chan too, for softball b div gold.

o and maths today was interesting. go and read today's TODAY. the cover page. never had such an exciting and funny maths lesson before lol. 4T ppl shud know wht im talking about =P

that's all for tonight! im gonna search for a new blogskin. kinda sick of this old one alr.

2009-03-02T22:57:00.003+08:00

lots of small but cool things today! ksp came back! p lim gonna treat a few ppl in the class to macs! and i finally went back to training lol.

i'll never forget the cheeky smile on mr yeo when i saw him after 8 weeks of absence in training. anw showed him the letter and i think i was damn dumb to show him the letter gah. after he saw it, he told me to just jog and run for the whole training (wtf!) no sprinting yet, sigh. so i spent a lot of training time slacking. and in the end, just took a 20 minutes run around RI and RJC. hopefully, by next week i can start sprinting again cause i really need to prepare for nats (which is like in a month's time!).

anw tmr's gonna be inventing games for PE. dunno whether to be excited or not. inventing games is boring cause there's NO physical activity involved, it's like just a whole theory thing sian. but yet, it's quite fun because i've never officially invented a game before =) i think i kinda like racket sports, and yet, territorial invasion sports too, so i guess i'll be proposing somethin like a hockey kind of game. man, ben ng, ming chan and one last guy i think in my group. and we're last to present, so dat means we have at least 1 month more.

but tmr seems rather packed. like quite rushed. almost fully busy for the second half of the day. i have to do erp after school, then i still have to go to the gym to tell the gym coach about physio, and spend sum time listening to the workout he's giving me, and actually i should do a workout before i go physio at 4.40. gah everything so rushed. and after that, i'm goin off with my whole family to plaza singapura. gonna get something, but i wont mention it here cause i dont want to keep my hopes too high yet lol.

and i only found out today (since i only met the new sec1s in track today) that there's at least more than 1 hulletian in sec 1 track. woots! this means hullett finally has some ray of hope in interhouse track =), considering i'm like the only sec 4 in hullett for track, sigh. hopefully we can get a 4th this year for 4 by 1 relay, i'll try my best. and jethro's bro is in track, but i dont know which one yet. one of the sec1s look like it but i'm not too sure. both of them definitely do have similar hair and personality anw.

that's all for tonight i guess. finally can sleep early! =)

2009-03-01T22:51:00.000+08:00

dedrick is all prepared for tomorrow.

2009-02-24T22:53:00.003+08:00

a guy from my sec 1 class created the class blog and invited me to see it today. the skin was FANTASTIC, in my opinion, it's a skin of david beckham and it really looks damn cool. but i was thinking that it didn't really suit the theme of a class blog, but well, ultimately it's still up to them. i won't paste the url here since you have to be invited to see the blog anw.

it's tons better than the 1P'06 blog. though the 1P blog still brings back many fond memories. i couldn't help but check out the 1P blog again. 1P Perfected... i still remember how long we took to think of a good slogan. i remember we had 1P Power, but in the end, Perfected was still the best. and someone found the "purely perfection" blogskin in the end. so well, everything fitted nicely.

reading the blog, i couldn't help thinking about my 2 years in 1P and 2P. i remember how i was like so new to the rafflesian surroundings but yet still so excited about my new class, and how i got to know each and everyone of the 2P people, how the PSLs were extraordinary buddies to me, how i had a great orientation camp and how i led 2 fulfilling years in 1P/2P.
i remember myself setting up the mail-list, and then after that someone told me that a phone number list would be more useful haha. i remember how i used to love dabbling in the html and change the colour of the links, the fanciful title, layout etc. and while i was scrolling down, reading the posts, i realised how different we were last time. everything just came back to me, really nice and sweet memories. preparing for class gathering at giff/yelin/my house, preparing for downtown east chalet stay...

looking at the algernon post, i remembered our pet hamster, Algy. how we got it, how much trouble we spent taking care of it, and how it eventually died and we had to bury it in the science garden. how it was such a telling symbol of our class spirit, the 1P Perfected spirit within us.
man, 1P/2P times were great.

i saw the pictures of our time in orientation camp too. saw pics of kiaboon, yelin and the other psls in the pics too. and why did we look so small?? (have we really grown that much?) lol and i see chin jie dressed up as the maori warrior (HIRINGA!), the walk of initiation, at rjc, tying our ties (LOL! remember how much we struggled!).

i remember posting a video on kiaboon solving rubik's cube in like a flash. haha and my sec 1 doesn't believe kiaboon's my psl and that kiaboon really was that fast with the cube. and now i'm already a psl of a sec 1 class, it's been three years, i realised that, back then, we seemed so much like the sec 1s now. and that we've grown and matured and changed. but the fond memories never fade. and the blog is physical proof. we shared fun memorable times and i'm sure they'll remain a part of our memories, even after we leave RI. it seems to stand out so much, and now i'm glad that i've taken on the psls' role and am guiding the sec ones. i can look at them now, and witness how i actually transformed into the person i am today. i'm pretty sure, three years ahead, when they look back at their class blog, they'll share the same sentiments as i do.

sec 1 and 2 was real fun. 1P/2P was the best. i won't ever forget the great memories of this class. 1P Perfected =)

2009-02-16T22:40:00.002+08:00

i think ammonia stinks. the smell's still lingering in my nose.

and my thermoreceptors seriously got some problem. can't even feel hotness.

2009-02-14T21:52:00.002+08:00

happy valentine's day! =D

hope everyone has enjoyed his/her special day!!

2009-02-12T22:19:00.002+08:00

swim carn today!

i only joined shaun choo and joshua after psgm ended at like 3.45. couldn't really tell where the hullett competitors were when the most you can see are some arms and heads in the pool. but anw to me, i kinda felt that swim carn was really messy. compared to like track and field, house carn. there's just lots of people in trunks everywhere and you can't tell what house they're in and what event they're participating in. anw, i know makoto (or rather, jia chen) won quite a few races. quite impressive. one of the best RI swimmers. and wu swam! quite of a surprise to us. cause in the afternoon, he was still very unwilling. though he finished last, i still think it was a good effort! at least he didnt change stroke halfway :D
anyway, alvin, manfred, aloy and jim were supposed to swim 100 breaststroke today. but things got a LOT delayed. all the events were delayed like 45 minutes. so in the end, they postponed everything to next wednesday.

anw, tomorrow's quite an interesting day. raffles trail for merit cca from 2-5 (!! why so long!?) and just a short hullett meeting to discuss the hullett shirt) . i know we're doing a kind of polo tee, hope it looks good =)
and im still in a dilemma over what to do tomorrow.
should i gym first, then join the sec 1s in raffles trail?
or should i join the sec 1s first, and leave halfway to gym?
cos i really wan to do both. i'll see tomorrow.

2009-02-09T22:39:00.002+08:00

i'm glad.

hope my posts have made an impact on him and that our friendship will improve. i'll try my best =) .

2009-02-06T22:15:00.002+08:00

guess i can say one of the problems is settled. teng chuan and i went to find mrs tan during recess today. in the end found ms ruhana and talked to her instead. we apologised and she told us that we should have stopped the sec 1s from playing in class and that we should go talk to the sec 1s about it. real nice of her to not scold us badly or something. i was expecting something quite bad. anw at least i can take a load off my shoulders now.

as for the other problem, it's still a heavy load on my shoulders. it's holding me down so much i desperately need to breathe. nowhere near solving it, and i fear that it's going to stagnate after the weekends. i know dragging it will not do any good, it makes everyone more dao-ish against each other and eventually everything becomes cold. lost. and the regret will bug me for ages.
but i want to do a personal apology and explain myself. i know that only a personal face-to-face apology will do it. and i admit i'm still a tad bit hoping that he will come and shout things out at me or something. it'd be easier to settle things after that. but despite that, i did try to search for an opportunity today. but it wasn't a good one. i was hoping too that he would walk past me like what happened in the past few days but i guess, sometimes the more you hope of accomplishing something, the more you won't. and honestly, i fear that it won't bring about any good results. what if he just daoed me and walked away? what if he still remained pissed at me and showed signs of hating me already? and signs of not being bothered anymore ever?
and the weekends aren't gonna do any good. it jus means that there's more chance of it stagnating. and like i said, i still feel that doing it face-to-face is the best solution. so should i still try again on monday? or should i do it in the weekends? will i be able to do it well? and not screw it up? should i unblock him now? but if i unblock him now, and he continues to dao? should i then talk to him first? what if he does talk to me after i unblock him? is apologising over msn really what i should do?
somehow it just feels to me that apologising and talking over msn about such a thing won't make any change to it.

my mind's in a whirl. this afternoon, during gymming, i realised that gymming was just like drinking beer, i can just put my mind at rest and just focus all in lifting the weights. it seems to cloud the stress i've faced with this problem.
it hurts lesser to ache physically.

2009-02-06T00:13:00.003+08:00

i bumped into him today. he didn't look friendly. looked quite pissed in fact. sigh. i couldn't say anything, and he just left without a word.

i really don't know what to do.

and now that i start to think more rationally, i realise there were even more stuff that i overlooked. stuff that i didn't realise was my fault. that night, u can say that a lot of people were trying to get people to join swim carn for hullett, myself included. he's one of the class reps and thus he obviously was busy getting people. i should know that too, how come it didn't occur to me?? i should have helped him instead of what i did. and now i feel even more guilty. dammit.

and things just couldn't get any more worse. after he went off, samuel (one of my sec 1s) came and told me some bad news. someone from my sec 1 class (i won't say who) had his head hit by the class soccerball 2 times and he actually complained to his parents. yea it's teng chuan and my fault, because we didn't stop the guys from playing in class, even though they were using a small ball. i admit i thought it wouldn't cause much damage and so i didn't really stop them. apparently, the first time he was hit, his spectacles broke (i didn't know about this at all! until today) and the second time he was hit, i was actually the one who did it. the ball came to me and i deflected it and well guess where it rebounded to. though both incidents were purely accidental, teng chuan and i are still in the fault for not stopping the sec 1s from playing ball in class. i'm in a real sticky situation man. we're going to see their FT tomorrow during recess and i just hope everything doesn't go that bad.

yea so today wasn't such a great day after all. one bad incident after another. it just doesnt stop. it's so draining. when i'm already so screwed up in handling a friendship and another problem has to come. i just hope that, tomorrow, both problems will be solved. and i will have to make an effort to ensure that both ARE solved. good thing the weekends are coming, i need to take a breather.

2009-02-04T22:31:00.005+08:00

gah i screwed up. i admit it.

i didnt post again on this blog to keep it alive, i jus really wanted to record my feelings somewhere. i don't want to be heard by everyone, but i want to voice it out.

why is it that i always screw up friendships which i want to develop? somehow, it's just so ironic. to me, there are two main types of friends, firstly the kind who are like acquaintances, they are on good terms with me, and well its like just a good pleasant relaxed relationship where everyone can sit together and laugh at jokes, and the second, the closer kind, whom you can confide in, be lifelong buddies with, chat anytime, meet up to play sports, and jus spend great time together.
and the thing is that i always maintain a good relationship with the first kind of friends, no particular conflicts and everything just goes well, but yet, for the second kind, i always meet up with all sorts of problems and screw up. and its really so hard and so rare to get a number of the second kind of friends. life always sux, whenever i try so hard to establish the second kind of friendship, in the end i screw it up and i end up on bad terms with someone.

i've always wanted a brother honestly. a younger brother. and i thought i found one. it was like kind of just trying to be funny to one of my classmates in the gym. and then it led to me saying that this guy was my younger brother. and then both of us became good friends. i admit, initially i was so mad about it, like "wow so cool! feels like i finally have a younger brother!" and then we kinda carried on with it. it was quite fun once, when both of us shared this blog where we would post about life, and i'll be called "biggie". and we also played conquer together, played gunbound together. it felt good to be like brothers.
we chatted much initially, he would initiate convos with me, and we could chat for quite long actually. talked about all sorts of things, from his relatives overseas, and his unique weird name starting with 'd', and then to school, to ice skating and all sorts of stuff. it was so easy to chat. we had relaxed convos, and we treated each other like good friends. walk past each other in school will say 'hi', and even having occasional conversations in school. and i even asked him to go ice skating last december when i went with some guys from 4T and oip, but he didnt go, and then i told him another time. but i don't even know whether its possible anymore.

anyway, then the convos got lesser and lesser. i've never forgotten the time when he said this, "gotmehwhyibusycannotahmaybeyoushouldbetheonetakingtheinitiativeinsteadofeverytimealsoitalkfirst". it did strike me hard. it's true, he's almost always the one initiating a convo. i had my faults too. yea i started trying to change. and just two days ago, this happened

(his replies are in italic and i'm in normal font)
"hey good luck for your match tmr :D"
"kay thanks"
"why you always so"
"busy?"
"nah dat wasnt wht i was thinking of"
"nvm"
"cya tmr then"
"bye"
"bb"
"nah its jus very hard to tok 2 u at times"
"or jus chat"
"oh lols okay"
"funny meh"
"nope"
"okay bye"
"i wanna sleep"

and just ytd,
"how was ur match?"
______ has changed his/her status to Busy
"i talk to u, u immediately change to busy mode =.="
"nice try"
"dun wan to tok, nxt time jus say"

and then i blocked him.
i know its so attitude and stupid. my anger jus overwhelmed me so much. because i wanted things to change, and i was quite frustrated. i wanted it to impact him! and thus my harsh words.
did i do anything wrong before? well i was trying to talk, but i didnt get wht i wanted. i was mad, i admit. cause i simply couldn't think of any reason. or maybe it was just the simple fact that he was real busy, but that didnt register in my head at all because i was so angry.

i know friendship is a reciprocating relationship, when one party doesn't take the effort to make friends, the other won't be inclined to take the effort too. i realise i may have been kind of selfish in the past, i always thought he would be the one talking to me. now i know that, i should also be doing my part to make friends and to talk more.

anw like i said, everytime i wan to establish the second kind of friendship, i always go through a great time with the person and then somehow, for some reason, i'll jus screw it up. it gets so frustrating. its like as though i'm so eager to have such a close friend and then i rush it out, and because i rush it out so much, my expectations of such a friend suddenly rises so much and then i'll screw things up. most of the friends who are the second kind are those from my primary school, who followed me all the way to the present. i know, the reason why i'm so close to them is because i had lots of interaction with them and i had a lot of time, we met up a lot, played soccer, played tennis, went back to cat high, went out to watch movie, there were simply hell lots of gatherings and we went through a lot together. but sometimes, in friendships where i want to develop into the second kind, there just isn't TIME and a great lack of interaction. and then i'll start hastening everything up and like i said, my expectations would rise and i would start to treat them like the 2nd kind of friends already, when i know that our friendship hasn't reached that stage yet. but i do hope to establish the 2nd kind of friendship with him, it's always good to make more close friends and i know he'll be a good one, if i felt that he wasn't worth it at all, i wouldn't even bother writing this post.

yea and back to the main story, just when i wanted to unblock him, he goes offline. fate.

ok i admit i've been in a bad mood these past few days, k? coz a lot's been happening, in the family, in school, in CCA, and even with sec 1s. it made me lose control of my emotions and i start screwing things up. its my fault. yesterday i really wanted to find someone to chat with and i was kinda looking forward to chatting with him the way we used to, then when i wasn't answered, it just all rushed to me, all the past frustrations and i started screwing things up. perhaps he was really busy, or perhaps he felt that i took him for granted and didn't do my part in reciprocating the friendship. he even replied "busy?" when i asked him "why you always so", that already showed that he was indeed busy. how foolish was i? and i know very well that the fact that his mode changed to busy after i talked was a pure coincidence and not on purpose. i should think more rationally next time.
now that i think of it, i was really rash and reckless. i might take some time myself to answer some people when i'm really busy. i know there were a few times when we actually talked quite a bit too. perhaps i should be more open-minded in the future and, yes, chat with an eagerness but still not overreact when i don't get eager replies. sometimes i just get too sensitive cause i'm so worried that some friend is not interested in talking anymore because of something i did, and then i overreact and screw things up. i know he's not like that in the hols, he talks much more in the hols. so obviously its because he's quite busy now. we really aren't as free as we were last time.
i'm really too sensitive, and i just wasnt in a very good mood either. and i know i shouldn't expect so much from a friend whom i'm not that close to yet. perhaps i should try to improve our friendship first before i start to expect more. after this incident, i think he's probably not on such good terms with me anymore. nowhere near best friends, i guess. but i'll make sure that i'll try hard to be as good a friend as i can, in the hope that we can go back to normal and chat like good friends. yea its my fault. i'm sorry.

honestly, right now, i really don't know how to move on. i dont know what to do. should i go apologise to him personally and explain my actions? well, friends should definitely do that. after all, friends are meant to forgive each other and appreciate each other even more. friends are meant to be always there for you, no matter how you have upset them. perhaps i should really do that.
or should i write my apologies in my pm and hope he gets my msg?
will he be willing to put aside all my selfishness, self-centredness, sensitivity and still regard me as his friend? and will he get the point i was trying to make throughout this post?

its quite draining to pour out so much. but at least it felt good after pouring everything out.

after writing all this, i realise i really do care a lot about relationships. perhaps its the person i am. and actually i'm not that emotional la. its just that i dont wan to screw up especially when it comes to the 2nd kind of friends.

i guess i can do nothing about it now. i'll just wait for tomorrow and see what happens.

2009-02-03T23:42:00.002+08:00

This is a crazy world
These can be lonely days
It's hard to know who's on your side
Most of the time

Who can you really trust
Who do you really know
Is there anybody out there
Who can make you feel less alone
Sometimes you just can't make it on your own

If you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
Well I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am

If you have broken dreams
Just lay them all on me
I'll be the one who understands
So take my hand

If there is emptiness
You know I'll do my best
To fill you up with all the love
That I can show someone
I promise you you'll never walk alone

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
Well I'll always be your friend

When you need a shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am

Everybody needs somebody who
They can pour their heart and soul into

If you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need a shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for the pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, Here I am

2009-01-01T16:15:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

let 2009 be a year for new beginnings and new relationships!

rejoice :)

(but school tmr. haiz. )

2008-12-02T00:31:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! :)

thank you for the presents!!

2008-11-24T23:45:00.001+08:00

i'm going off again tomorrow! going to KL for track overseas trip and i'm spending 4 days which means i'm coming back at friday night!

i'll update after that i guess, everything about oip and the track trip

hopefully by that time, kailun would have sent me the pics :)

Adios!

2008-11-09T22:36:00.002+08:00

leaving for malaysia tomorrow morning!!!

i'll be back by 21 Nov!

don't miss me too much :D

and good luck to ben for his RA applications :)

2008-11-08T22:57:00.002+08:00

WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW
i'm still in a serious state of shock.

went to mervyn's house today for a class party/gathering. wait did i say house? my god, "house" doesnt do the place justice at all. neither does fantastic. nor superb. nor WOW. seriously, it's like a resort, a HIGH CLASS resort, since it bears resemblance to the governmental types of places, like the Imperial Court and Istana.

at first went to buona vista to meet everyone. then came 3 (spell THREE) cars coming to fetch all of us. with a little squeezing, we eventually reached his house. i seriously don't know how to describe it. simply fabulous. amazing. it makes a lot of ppl's houses seem like nothing. like those movie settings when the producers spend hundreds of millions to set up a imperial house. but this is the REAL THING.

when i get the pics from the other guys, i'll post it asap. i just can't forget the house omg. anw, i spent most of the time in this gigantic room (among many many more rooms) that is as big as my house's living room + kitchen. i swear i could have sang there for days. anw, i really don't know how to describe the house. it's like the second place i would always want to be at, apart from disneyland (LOL). i mean, the main thought that was always going thru my mind was that the house was like those imperial palace, super high class, super high tech, super big, fairytale-like (ok maybe this isnt that fitting) places that you see in movies and such and you can only lie on your bed and dream about it, but yet i was in the REAL THING. gosh. someone get me out of my shock.

now, apart from being in serious shock, i'm also thinking of aspiring to be a cardiologist lol. i heard mervyn's dad is a cardiologist :P but i'm not being entirely serious here la. i mean you dont have to restricted to something. but one thing i'm serious about is that i'm definitely going all out to achieve something like this in my life, or at least as close as i can :)

2008-11-07T22:45:00.002+08:00

LAAASSTT oip training today!!

in the morning went rjc for track training (self-training) with wang kwan and jun yang. and after that went back home and realised that i was running a bit late, like 12.20 i still at home and im supposed to reach school at 12.30 and i have to take bus. luckily, my grandma called my house and coincidentically, i was at home :) she called a few minutes b4 i set off. and she agreed to fetch me. luckily. or else i'd been very late.

anw, went back to that raffles players place again for the performance rehearsal. remember my part's with the stick thing? yea, quite fun today, since we're already like 90% good with the dance moves. so we rehearsed for quite awhile, and ended at around 4+.

can't wait for our performance in malaysia! leaving in 2 days!

2008-11-06T23:33:00.002+08:00

second last oip training today!

we started out at the raffles players room today. it was a real sight, seriously. i never knew there was such a cool room in RI. it's like a real dance studio/performance studio or whatever u call that. nice long mirrors on the wall and even a makeup place and sound system and stuff. spotlights too. not bad. anw, we went there for DANCING. yea.

mr law's our choreographer for our performance in malaysia oip, so yep u can expect something good! well, the moves were definitely very high (haha, typical mr law) and SEXY to some extent ;) so we spent a few hours trying the moves out, and i'm doing some moves with a rod (you know the top parts of those brooms/mops) but don't worry, we're decorating them and it's NOT pole dancing. we're dancing to the malay song "chan mali chan". moves r great! but sum of them abit gay la honestly. shaking ass here and there lol. like those kind of cultural festival kind of thing.

anw, tmr we're goin back for rehearsal again! so i'll go off now :D

2008-11-03T22:02:00.002+08:00

my gosh. i only realised this when i came back home today after training. even though i repeatedly asked a few ppl in school the date today XD

so,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!!

yea i know. i haven't gotten anything for her this year, i'll try to get sumthin soon XD

2008-10-28T23:12:00.002+08:00

79. I HATE THIS NUMBER.

anw,
after school, went for a short gym session and then HSM3 with lotsa other ppl. ben chin, jiaxuan, ervin, hiok, manfred, ziheng, alvin lum, zixuan, ming chan, jack and me. bunch of himbos, HAHA :P had quite a fun time, except for a few girls who were bloody noisy just behind me. anw gotta admit hsm songs are getting better and better BUT well the dance in the movie can get corny at times. i mean like suddenly two people dancing in the middle of a car repair company? but i guess this' probably the last show, since the main characters are going all sorts of different universities and such. AND i'm definitely gonna get my hands on the soundtrack soon. :)

how i wish there was no such thing as tomorrow.

2008-10-27T21:54:00.001+08:00

home phone spoiled. handphone spoiled.

yay.

2008-10-23T21:43:00.002+08:00

yep i came home in one piece. except im missing just a few cm2 of flesh.

interhouse b div rugby today! and a few other sports, but i only played rugby. other sports were softball, badminton and table tennis.

lemme recall, first team was ryan, ziheng, shiya, joshua, suphasak, yanxun and me. first game was against moor. supposedly one of the more formidable teams? becoz of the number of ruggers. erm contact rugby was changed to touch, because in the previous match, bayley against buckley, micah dislocated his shoulder so they decided to change it to touch. anw even with touch, there's still a lot of rough and violent actions, no doubt. game was going quite well, i think we did quite well defending, and could see that we tried to win. in the end, we drew. ah well. and during the match, i bloody got dragged down together with eddy (the rugger) becoz that idiot has no brains and thinks touch is just like contact when he can bring people down =.= so as i was stopping him from passin me, then he just continued charging and then i fell and lost that few cm2 of flesh. went to jiawei after that for sum first aid. AND couldnt play anymore matches after that sigh. so got wu to replace me for the rest of the matches.

anw, at the end of the WHOLE thing, we eventually got 2nd! lost to morrison in goal difference sian. becoz of buckley!! buckley!!! why did ur lose so badly to morrison!!! but still, its a great improvement since we got 4th for rugby last year. so, i think a lot of credit goes to all the players, those that i mentioned above, and the subs too, chin jie, and his two fellow judokas, rixing and daniel. cheers for a silver medal, haha.

as for the other sports, table tennis got 2nd. which is great. xinyan and sheng wei played! quite cool eh, too bad i didnt' go and watch haiz. i heard xinyan won all of his matches and sheng wei lost his match to parry. but can't blame shengwei though, since parry's a school player. and then softball got 4th. i think alvin lum, manfred, zi xuan, gerald eng and a few others played. not really sure. badminton got 4th too but i didn't watch it.

so that's all for house carn 2008 (and i'm damn tired because i played a lot of badminton after rugby :P). hopefully nxt year, we can play (sec 4s can play, i hope?) and we'll do better :)

o ya how could i forget? first day of oip training today! turns out teachers-in-charge for malaysia are mr law and ms rachel ___ (i forgot the surname! OMG) shall make it a point to find out tomorrow and fill the blank XD and student facilitators are abhinav (the hullett sec 4 tennis player) and kieran (ram chandra!). ah a lot happened today and i just can't rmber a lot of the oip training. just a lot of icebreakres and stuff. tmr's like whole day oip training so i'll post about it tmr :D

2008-10-22T23:38:00.002+08:00

went for interhouse c div hockey today. not really good results, we got 4th. missed 3rd by 1 goal. but i still want to applaud all the players for the effort well done!

we were brave. definitely. facing the stronger oppositions who had DSAs etc. at least those who played showed good spirit, and although we were quite low down in spirits in the 3rd-4th placing, at least they still tried their best.

firstly, from the 10 people on the registration list, we had 8 people. well done to all the sec 1s especially, for playing so well and trying your best even though they were not as skilled as the sec 2s. huzaifi, iliya, ansar, hafiz, ramzi and syafiq. really great effort. esp hafiz, helped us score a number of goals and i think he's the most skilled sec 1 player :) and ramzi was really very active in trying to score, so that's well done too. (and omg i suddenly can't rmber who was goalkeep) ok huzaifi and ansar, one of them was goalkeep and saved some really good shots, so i think they deserve applause too. iliya was good too, when assisting the rest. syafiq's not a hockey player, but at least he still fought hard against the sec 2 hockers. AND i know nxt yr we're gonna OWN c div hockey, because we have the best sec 1 players now! seriously. the good sec 2 players this yr are going sec 3 nxt year, and the good sec 1s this year are like mostly hulletians. so nxt yr, we're gonna go for that gold medal.

anw not forgetting the sec 2 players. unfortunately dexter culdnt make it. anw sec 2 players were ben and his classmate, bryan. bryan was good! quite nervous at times but then he helped to score quite a few goals! and ben was amazing too, esp in the 3rd-4th placing match where he really gave his all. and he got a shot at goal this time, haha! but sadly, didnt manage to score. nvm, nxt year i think im either going for hockey/tennis and i think the team will be exactly like (or almost like) the team we had last year when we played in c div (same ppl wad) so nxt yr we'll have dexter and ben as sec 3s, and giff, wu and shaun choo as sec 4s. let's go for the medal, i'm still mulling over the fact that the pe department LOST OUR MEDALS IN SEC 2. next yr, must get medal man.

so to the sec 1s this year, try ur best nxt year!

and rugby for me tmr! dammit, hope i go home in one piece. dont want to have any broken limbs or anything.

2008-10-21T01:10:00.003+08:00

EEEENNNNNNDDDDDDDDDD OOFFFFF EEEEOOOOYYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

super HIGH !!!!!

BUT. kinda pissed bcoz BCOZ just yesterday, i recorded like 5 hours worth of shows on okto (yes the newly launched channel so means NEW programmes so means 1st episodes yesterday) and was INTENDING to watch the 5 hours + worth of shows while slacking on my comfy show and indulge in the delights of relaxation

when i realised! i nearly fainted the moment i saw the tv screen when i played the recorded stuff. --no racism intended, jus that i didnt expect to see it-- VASANTHAM CENTRAL (the channels split remember!??) so in the end i recorded vasantham central because it used to be the channel for kids central and then i MIXED UP with the new okto channel. haiz. ah well. to think i was looking forward so much to slacking on the sofa and watching the shows just after i wrote down my last word for bio. and i even told gifford in the afternoon that i recorded the avatar show thing. dammit man, he's gonna laugh at me when he finds out about this.

anw, more updates coming soon and more regularly! :) kinda late now, so i shall reserve posts for nxt time :P

2008-10-18T00:22:00.001+08:00

physics. died.

2008-10-11T00:05:00.001+08:00

how.do.i.get.my.frigging.eyes.to.open.

2008-10-10T22:55:00.001+08:00

1/4 of exams gone!!

SS AND ENGLISH TODAY.

not too bad.

good luck to everyone for the rest of the exams!

2008-10-06T22:26:00.002+08:00

i'm a class-based PSL for 1Q' 2009! (dang missed 1P, giff+ nick quah + man is bloody lucky!)

=D

and the saddest thing is i'm too busy to post more about it. haiz.

2008-10-05T00:01:00.002+08:00

wasnt much of a day today. spent the whole day doing redox and abit of acids n bases revision. so i officially finish mugging for chem! :))

but i still have 5 subjects left T.T haiz. hang in there hang in there!!

anw, in my free time, i went to check asknlearn and read this post and finally realised why there were so many lanterns (?) hanging from the ceiling in the walkway of the 5th and 6th floors. apparently, they're carps or koi and they represent courage and perserverance. a little something from mr law to encourage us to strive on like the fish through the eoys.

and did i mention, i'm a class-based PSL!!! :DD thanks ervin for informing me, you made my night when you told me haha XD it's great man, i've always been looking forward to be a class-based PSL.

and yep bennah, i've already gotten over the m'sia oip :P so here's Selamat Pagi to you in return, in case you miss my tag! :P

2008-10-01T23:07:00.002+08:00

another TIRING day.

was so worried about physics quiz that i mugged moments for dunno how many hours. and then just about 1 hr ago, i checked my email and found out that there's NO MORE physics quiz! =.=

F**K. dat means i spent so much time mugging for nothing and that also means that i just barely passed my quizzes (best 3 out of 4) --> 7+5+3/30 = 15/30
sian was hoping to use the last quiz to pull up my grades. but looks like that's out of the question now.

ah well, school resumes tomorrow! not very excited, to be honest. i NEED more non-school days. seriously need them. both for rest and mugging. gambatte! just about two more weeks to go! push push push!

anw, just when i went on msn, i found something quite amusing. i see some sec 2s mugging their MOV (and someone's stuck at chapter 19 lol) and then it brought back some memories of myself trying to mug MOV. at that time, i thought it was really impossible and that it was really asking too much of me. but well. look at how much i have to prepare for eoys now. mov mugging almost pales in comparison. every year, we jus have to continually improve ourselves and face challenges of increasing difficulty. it's life.

and yea. i'm slacking now. listening to music :D coz i really don't feel like doing maths now :P

2008-10-01T01:15:00.002+08:00

last day of dmp today!

last module was nutrition in sports. just a short section on weight management and then a test for the module. can't say the test was easy, but then everything could be gotten from the notes. so well. anw this module's been great, at least to me, i feel it's extremely beneficial to an athlete. like for eg, i realise that my hydration state isn't very good for an athlete, and my food consumption isn't in the correct proportions too. so i guess i can make changes to improve my performance. and recovery's important too! great excuse for slacking XD

anw so, dmp's officially over! no more 2 weeks of slack and fun and interesting and exciting modules and here comes the boring and mundane lessons and the stupid and killer exams. sigh. and no more waking up at 9 am anymore. T.T

so now, i'm just hardcore mugging all the eoy stuff, after finally getting back my chem file, my mugging seems to be more proportionate now of all the subjects. and i'm so tired. so bloody tired everyday. AND two more weeks to go. f**k. i NEED my coffee.

2008-09-26T21:39:00.003+08:00

LAST lesson of financial literacy today!!

abit sad, to be honest. i really liked financial literacy. i thought the content was great, the trainer was great and it was really interesting and fun. especially when you learn about investments :D it jus gives ppl the feeling that they can become financially sound when they go for the course. though not really that in depth into finance, i still think the stuff taught was useful and definitely worth my time. 4 lessons was definitely not enough.
anw, so today's last lesson was this finance game. similar to monopoly, yes, but just that it's a lot more fun :P so we have a group leader, an accountant and a treasurer. we can choose to invest in properties, car/private transport and buy stocks/bonds etc to earn money and the such. really quite fun, and i thought it actually resembled a real life situation, something that monopoly, or for that matter, a lot of finance board games lack. yea we did screw up at some point in the game, but in the end, we still ended up with 1.03 million! :) (we started out with $500,000)
so, well, something i learnt from financial literacy, start EARLY!! don't wait till you're old to buy insurance and invest and the such. time is money.
really hope i could go for something like a more advanced version of this course in the future :D

anw, had 4 hours free before training today. so bennah, ervin and i finished the chem nanotech fps thing in library and went off to play table tennis after that. and decided not to go training XD coughing like mad la.

o and i'm going MALAYSIA (yes truly asia =.=) for oip trip!! i shall stop sulking about it, it's still overseas anw. what alvin said made sense, it's still better than nothing! BUT i'm still hoping there will be a plane ride XD and anw from my class, hiok and parry shud still be going, so i dont see any reason why i shouldnt. hope oip is fun in malaysia :D i can't wait. the trip's gonna be 2 weeks long, host school will be Malay College Kuala Kangsar in Perak (i'll post more details nxt time) and so i'll be off in malaysia from 10-24 nov. 2 weeks! gosh. honestly, the longest time i've ever been overseas is 1 week. nonetheless, i'll know it'll be a great, fun and an enriching experience :D

2008-09-25T23:21:00.002+08:00

学校生活　（改编自七里香）

莱佛士书院，是我最爱的校园
学生老师们，都和我一起上学
我爱莱佛士，莱佛士是我的家
老师很关心我们朋友也同样关心

有礼堂，有食堂
有操场，有图书馆
校园设施各种各样，都十分完美
有考试，有测验
给我们很多的压力
考试前不能睡觉上课没有精神

1学校生活，很忙碌但是也很精彩
说到功课，没办法只好快点去做
说到朋友，他们把生活变得很完美
莱佛士书院是我的家园

2学校生活，很忙碌但是也很精彩
说到功课，真的太多只好快点去做
说到朋友，他们把生活变得一切完美
莱佛士书院是我的家园

1学校生活，很忙碌但是也很精彩
说到功课，没办法只好快点去做
说到朋友，他们把生活变得很完美
莱佛士书院是我的家园

有老师，有同学，
有校长，有副校长
他们在我生活里扮演不同角色
有的好，有的差，
在我心中没有差别
我真的舍不得放弃这一种感觉

1学校生活，很忙碌但是也很精彩
说到功课，没办法只好快点去做
说到朋友，他们把生活变得很完美
莱佛士书院是我的家园

2学校生活，很忙碌但是也很精彩
说到功课，没办法只好快点去做
说到朋友，他们把生活变得很完美
莱佛士书院是我的家园

2008-09-25T22:56:00.002+08:00

i know i hvnt blogged about the past days' dmp.... been so busy and so tired... and somemore i'm on medication, so i'm feeling drowsy most of the time, and i still have to mug and go for dmp, sigh T.T
anw since i have some free time tonight (damn bloody rare), i'll jus post a little

ok so dmp is coming to an end (so fast!) so soon. it's been great, going for all the modules, they're interesting and all and a lot better than sitting in class listening to the boring curriculum. and summore it feels more free, and i mean literally free, sometimes i have 1st periods free so i can wake up late! and sometimes i end school early, so i can go back home early! and sometimes there are in-between free periods which i spend playing table tennis or tennis :P

anw so like i said, the modules i'm taking are coming to an end. today was chem nanotech and the last lesson of chinese song appreciation.
for chem, we watched a video and then analysed some nanostuff. in the end, we were given our task, to complete a FPS situation. not that hard i suppose, but still time-consuming.

chinese song appreciation last lesson! tong lao shi and zhou lao shi both came. so today was the presentation of our products, which are supposed to be our own set of lyrics to a song. shao tong and i did ours two days before. we changed the lyrics of jay chou's "qi li xiang" to something about school life in RI. typical. mundane. yeah. anw, turned out to be quite good! at first, the groups that presented had lyrics which were like all damn pro while ours was really crap. but it wasnt that bad. and i think we sang quite well too XD turned out the teachers liked our lyrics and in the end, our lyrics was the 2nd best in class. got two sweets as presents and one of them was HACKS (just perfect for my cough and sore throat).
ok so what i thought was that this module was actually quite enriching. at least for those who have just a teeny-weeny interest in chinese songs. slack module nonetheless, but still interesting. ONLY when it goes to the more recent pop songs part. the first lesson on old songs isn't really one of the most interesting lessons...

anw nxt post's our lyrics!

2008-09-21T17:40:00.003+08:00

DMP day 5!!

gosh i jus realised i forgot to post for this day. maybe was too happy because of the weekend. first period was PE mental skills. just went thru the previous chapters and then got to a few new ones. lesson stilll quite interesting though.

after that the break, and i went to play table tennis with ben nah. after that, went to watch justin play badminton with daniel. ah then recess!

chem nanotech was really good today! we got to watch a bit of this star trek show (which is all robots and freaky at the same time) and our experiment was to get this coating of silver onto a glass slide. at first, the silver nitrate had something wrong so it took quite some time before we started on the correct stuff. anw, experiment was fast so ben nah and i retried again and ended up with a better end product. it's a glass slide coated with silver on one side. and it's reflective.

went for hullett exco interview after school. saw shayne, ryan goh and richard. i went after shayne. hmm, i cant say it was good, cant say it was bad either. i'm trying for sports capt, so wish me luck! thanks alvin :D

overall rating of day 5 : 7/10

2008-09-18T22:13:00.002+08:00

DMP day 4!!

i was TIRED today. lucky i didnt put the hullett exco interview today. anw, first period was bio (closer look at life). everyone felt kinda lethargic, to be honest, but content wasnt that bad. we started off with going thru the previous lesson's worksheet, and then the main thing was making specimens. actually the specimens could be made into bookmarks, but only the good ones would be made into them. so, first jiaxuan, brandon and i chose some leaves and then we compressed it with the super super heavy thick bio textbook XD. yea this is supposed to 'squeeze' the juice out of the leaves, becoz you need specimens to be dry. anw, we put on this grills next (you know those barbeque grills?) on top of the newspaper covering the specimens, and there they go into the oven! so we'll be getting back our specimens on lesson 4 i guess. hopefully ours is good enuff to be made into a bookmark :)

next was chem nanotech, just two floors below in the chem lab. i mentioned the ferrofluid experiment in the previous post, so today's experiment was the gold nano-sized particles! ok i admit this experiment wasnt as fun or exciting as the ferrofluid one, but at least there's still some good product. so, the basic principle is that the physical properties differ in the nanoscale compared to an object in its normal state. for eg. gold is well golden when you look at it, but on the nanoscale, it's actually red. so, what we did was to synthesise these gold particles (no we can't get real money from it), and then the final product was these vials of red ribena-like solutions which contains gold nano-particles. well, at least this lesson was well planned and more organised. but i still prefered the ferrofluid experiment.

chinese was BORING. ok at LEAST the songs this time was slightly closer to our generation's songs. lol. anw first half of the lesson was going thru sum presentation slides, and then she just let us listen to some of the songs in her com. i slept thru the second half of the lesson XD couldn't sleep in the first half because the idiots beside me were so bloody noisy and rowdy, bryce and the crowd.

overall rating of day 4 : 7/10

2008-09-17T20:44:00.002+08:00

DMP day 3!!

today was fun. more fun than i expected. first period was nanotech at the chem lab. experiments time!! yea i grouped up with ervin and ben nah. the two smp pros. anw, we were supposed to do two experiments, but well, we only did one because of the lack of time. so, we did this ferrofluid experiment. i STILL dont really get how this is related to nanotech, but well.. it was fun doing this experiment. apparently this ferrofluid is a liquid magnet and once its on your shirt, its a permanent stain. honestly, i think the whole class wasnt really well organised, cause everyone was unsure of what to do and there's only one teacher. so we took lots of time just for a few procedures. and i found out the chem lab in our school has some really strong magnets! was quite funny actually. (because we need the magnets to attract the ferrofluid to drain off the excess ammonia etc), so mr jason tan had to keep getting stronger and stronger magnets. in the end, ksp came (our saviour?) and he got this imba magnet. too bad we didnt have enough time to properly complete the experiment, and we apparently used the wrong solvent. we were supposed to use some tetra-**** thing (XD) but then we used water instead. so we ended up with this weird black solution in a test tube, which we brought home. we spent quite a long time on this experiment, so no time for the gold nano-sized particles experiments sian. hope we do it the nxt lesson.

anw was rather late and had to chiong all the way up 6 floors for financial literacy. first lesson of financial literacy! its an external module, so it felt kinda better. anw, i thought the content was really good and useful, learning all about finance. really very useful course. i'd recommend it to anyone. 30 bucks. really worth it. and surprisingly, i saw sheng wei! **theidiotwhocausedplimtoscoldmebecausehedidntsignupforfinancialliteracywhenhepaidforit**
saw haozhi and junrui too.

free period after that! wanted to find ben but just didnt have enough time during recess. sian. so went off to play table tennis with daniel and sher yin (is that how u spell his name? O.O) and eventually played with ervin. CLE after that, i swear mr law's getting more and more creative... NEGATIVE FORCES!! lol.

overall rating of day 3 : 7/10

2008-09-16T23:23:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

to benjamin!! (mr dovilourus)

Have a nice 14th birthday (and make sure you give me something in return on my birthday)!!
Why no birthday party??
anw good luck to your future endeavours and GROW TALLER!

2008-09-16T23:23:00.002+08:00

DMP day 2!!

went very VERY early to school because of something. i think my mum had to go to work early. so was kinda tired in the morning. o wait, first congrats to fukai for becoming prefect!! (yay one more prefect in track!) but i KNOW his ulterior motive in becoming prefect...**hinthiscousinhint**

anw, first period was chinese song appreciation and song writing. not really what i thought it would be. some people who were in my class were teng chuan, shao tong, haozhi, amos and a few others. i THOUGHT it would be the appreciation of current hit songs but it turned out to be appreciation of OLDIES. ah well. teacher was quite nice though. and our assignment is to write lyrics for a chinese song and sing it. sian.

second period was nutrition in sports. this one was really insightful and great stuff. teacher was mr steven lim. other people who shared the same class were kieran, jiaxuan, kwun tong, chin jie and a lot more whom i cant remember. anw we started off with the basic bio stuff, carbs, proteins and fats and their properties etc. then it started getting quite interesting, glycemic index and glycemic load and stuff. i think this module is quite good. might be able to improve my performance thru better nutrition :)
apparently, to burn fat, we must run at low intensity and for a long period of time. i didnt know that, honestly. anw, assignment is a food diary! or a food log, whatever you call it. a 3 days consecutive food log. write down EVERY SINGLE food that you eat, calculate the glycemic load or something and total percentage of something.
o and mr lim showed us his food plan for his gobi march. apparently, everyday he would take 2000+ kcal of energy and he really calculated everything out carefully. like even the bottles of gatorade. how many he would need etc. that is one hell of a thing to do before a killer run like gobi march. impressive. iron man indeed.

recess and leonard HAD to take my phone and call the first girl he sees in my phonebook. ZZZ. c'mon, next time someone takes my phone, PLEASE scroll down more, there are other girls. dont always go for the first few letters of the alphabet. i always feel damn abashed when the same person is prank-called and i have to sms to apologise.

assembly after that! cca points confirmation. apparently i have 3 points now! XD that sux. i only had 19 hours for CIP (thats 0 points) and i think you need 20 hours for 1 point. dammit. then for the track stuff, a lot of competitions were left out from my record, like swift, all comers etc. hope they count though.

overall rating of day 2 : 7/10

2008-09-15T22:15:00.002+08:00

DMP day 1!!

woke up at 8.50 lol. yea monday normal school day wake up at 8.50 :P chionged to school abit because i was slightly late for first lesson. first lesson was at 9.30. anw went up to 7th floor and realised i was early! XD anw first period was Mental Skills Training for Athletic Performance. teacher is mr quek. quite interesting really. BUT had to buy this textbook thing for 10 bucks. yep thats the only bad part about it. apart from the fact that the room's a little too cold. if i remember correctly, the people i know who's in the same class are... wzy, jiaxuan, manfred, justin, kieran and a few others. anw learnt how to set goals and stuff like mental preparation etc.
i think i still like this module the most up to this point

second module was chem on nanotechnology. this one is really interesting, but we didn't have much of hands-on experiments today. nxt lesson will have though, since nxt lesson's in the lab :) heard we're making nano-sized stuff or something. anw for this lesson, we just got a brief intro into nanotech and then some amazing facts on nano-tech. like scientists can make gold nano-sized bullets to inject into our body to kill cancer cells! and some other stuff. good intro to this module, i think its worth going for.

third module was bio. a closer look at life. I THOUGHT we were cutting frogs today, but not :( instead, we cut VEGETABLES. (DAMMIT) anw learnt a lot a lot of stuff on plant parts, esp the stem, and revised lots of stuff i learnt in primary school XD then we had to cut carrots and celeries into tiny thin slices to observe them under the microscope. ok we are around silver standard i guess XD (people who went to that module shuld know what i mean) this one was particularly interesting too, i thought the lesson had a very "free" feel to it, something that i think a lot of teachers fail to have in their lessons. it just made me feel good and interested.

(random but) overall rating of day 1: 8/10
fun!

after that was cca. it sucked. dont ask about it.

2008-09-13T23:21:00.000+08:00

i feel feverish.

2008-09-13T00:27:00.004+08:00

last day of school before dmp! but no doubt, tiring day (and i still refuse to sleep even though its 12.30+ :P)

had bio in the morning first and got back the cct. 31/40. not very good and not very bad. but prbly can still secure my 4.0 for bio :) chinese and geog were boring as usual and ss was doing sum eoy stuff. not very interesting yea, but that's only for the first part of the day.

o yea, during recess, mr koh came to our class to play table tennis! LOL no offence but he doesnt even know wht counts as a proper serve, but anw he pulled off sum skilled shots so i guess that makes up for his weird serves :P anw, he was so worried that some teacher would see him when he was playing XD in the end, mr law did see him but he just ignored mr koh. mayb cause lots of ppl know that someone always "kena scolding" ? =)

after school was more of the highlight of the day. after stoning in the library for an hour or two, i went for track AGM with junrui, wzy and wee kuang. was at the 4th floor of junior block, in that slightly cramped 1H classroom. so, mr quek jus had some stuff to tell all of us. looks like the next 3 years, 2009, 2010, 2011's gonna be busy (VERY busy) years for trackers, or any other sport for that matter. ok for us, everything nxt yr is pushed forward because of something, damn now i cant remember the name. was it some sort of asian games thing? at bangkok if i remember correctly. so inter-school nats is like pushed all the way to april, which is fcked up because we have damn little time to train now, but on the good side, that means after april, we have a LONG off-season :) and nationals clash with interhouse too, so thats a bit troublesome. and seeing that nats is on april, god knows when are all comers, swift and all the stuff.

2010, as everyone shud know, is youth olympics, but by then, i'll be in RJC and STILL eligible in age for YOG, but i dont think i can qualify. unless i perform uber well in nats nxt yr.
so let's not talk about 2011 lol. i jus know the main thing in 2011 is another big competition thing, dunno held where again.

anw the rest of mr quek's speech was just mainly stuff about the team and our performance so far. after that was track exco elections. people elected were junyang, syafiq, wang kwan, me and jiaxuan. o thats' for b div. c div people were lemuel, ezra, jinheng, leal and xiangdi. won't say much more because i guess it's classified and honestly, no one knows the results yet. i'll post the results another time! =)

2008-09-08T21:15:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL REOPENS!

but that is NOT the main point of today's post.

today, i had the best physics lesson ever in my whole life. :D

im not bragging, but well forgive me if you think i'm bragging,

23/25 FOR CCT!!!

really really didnt expect it because of my previous lousy results in the shitty physics quizzes
7 marks - 5 marks - 3 marks - 1 marks
yea drop 2 marks every time. dont really know why. O.O

and training was quite good today. drills for a few hours, and then i had to do HURDLES (ARGH!) . *howtoquithurdleshowtoquithurdleshowtoquithurdles!!!** and yea, tried out my powercat for the 2nd time and they still feel well, a little weird. mayb i'm just not used to sprint spikes.

give it some time.

i know junyang's (and a few other ppl) going to changchun, china on wednesday, so have fun! :)
o and wish me luck to become a class-based PSL!! :)

2008-09-01T23:50:00.003+08:00

hols are still the best!! they just feel great :)

had training in the morning, and we were quite hardcore today, even though it's off-season. good refreshing change from all the tiresome ccts and homework :-)
came back and STONED and SLACKED on the sofa XD for hours and hours. watching tv and watching tv. then played tennis with my dad, though it was probably the worst game i ever played in my life.

why is this post so random? random rumblings. reminds me of something. ah well.

anw, wishing all those in RLP 1 or 2 who are going Hue, Vietnam tmr an enjoyable trip! good luck and have fun! :) kinda wish i was in RLP too (then i can skip maths TA!!) , but then, i'm still going for OIP anw. end of the year.

2008-08-31T10:22:00.002+08:00

i'm back after a short short hiatus! and term 3 is finally over! the tiresome killer CCTs for the past few weeks and lotsa projects and impt stuff are all over! time for a good well-deserved break! :) everyone enjoy your sept hols too!
just a recap of what happened on friday (teacher's day celebrations).

firstly, HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! -- to all teachers who have taught me. all of you have impacted me in a great way.

went to school just as normal in the morning, but had to rush abit because i had to give out the teacher's day presents. decided to put all the presents in the pigeon holes because i was really running out of time lol. anw, what i gave them was a small photo frame that looks like a TV. bought them at mini-toons and got a free gift too. (later you'll see who got the free gift XD)
i gave to most of my sec 1/sec 2 teachers and i think all of my sec 3 teachers except wang lao shi (well she's on maternity leave). i gave dr chionh hers last since she was the only HOD who taught me. anw was trying to insert the gift into her pigeon hole which was locked and the slot was so small, then i had lots of difficulty and it looked like i was trying to pry open her pigeon hole or something. then mr kenneth low came and said, "can't fit? next time must remember to take measurements!" LOL. so in the end, i went into dr chionh's room and gave her personally.

teachers' day celebrations was quite interesting this year. usual location in the hall where i can't see much because my class is at the back, but well, the activities this year were quite engaging. i think there was a silhouete quiz first, where silhouettes of teachers were shown and we guessed who they were. apparently, this year's theme for teachers' day is HEROES. (you know the popular TV series) then there were some activities where students pit themselves against teachers. most interesting one was the quiz -- HODs versus Students. pity dr chionh didnt go up. :P and i remember the most meaningful performance was by mr ali, the guy in the general office who has worked in RI for 23 years. so, he's retiring and that was his last day in RI! here's wishing mr ali good health!

stoned around for abit after celebrations and eventually went back to cat high, together with manfred, wu, jech and chin jie. found qiu lao shi and ms tu first. went out of the staffroom to see a table full of food and drinks and the person standing beside it, busy managing the food, none other than lin lao shi. looks like she prepared catered food for all of us because she knew we were all coming, she's really the most caring teacher i ever knew :) went upstairs to see mr wan, after not seeing him for 3 years! mr wan hasnt changed a bit, still the same as ever :) AND HE FORGOT MY NAME ZZZ. anw he remembered after awhile and was saying that zac and i had changed a lot since P6. after that, went down to play soccer against the sec 1s. sec 3s + sec 2s VS sec 1s. ok that seems unfair but there werent a lot of sec 3s and sec 2s so it was quite balanced. but we still pwned them :) and i finally broke my 1-year-old nike soccer shoe after i pumped the ball up into the sky XD hoping to get new shoes soon :) so, i had a great time in cat high, except for the fact that it was quite troublesome walking around with my spoiled shoes.

o ya, almost forgot. lets go back a little in time. after teachers' day celebrations ended, mr koh saw me and thanked me and wu for the gift. and he was asking, "thanks for the gift, but why your give me a pig?" lets just say the free gift i got from mini-toons was a massager in the shape of a pig :PP

2008-08-23T00:07:00.001+08:00

I'm officially a PSL of 2009!!

=D

2008-08-22T22:23:00.002+08:00

iPhone 3G is officially available in Singapore !!

hope my parents will get me it. hopefully.

but it's a low chance.

and even if i do get it, it won't be anytime soon. =(

(still saving up =D)

2008-08-17T00:18:00.006+08:00

USAIN BOLT WINS 100M FINALS AND SETS A NEW WORLD RECORD AGAIN!!

usain bolt, the fastest man on Earth. bolt totally OWNED the 100m with his new OR and WR of 9.69 secs.

his start wasn't exactly fantastic and he was lagging behind. but at around 60m, this crazy bloody imba guy accelerated past everyone and led convincingly. DID YOU SEE HOW HE SLACKED IN THE LAST 10-20 M? my god, if he had gone full speed throughout the race, i'm pretty sure he would have broken even 9.6 secs.

he was pounding his chests, and his arms were outstretched and he could literally walk to the finish line. AND he broke world record. how does he do that?? i bet one step from him is like 2-3 steps of us, considering his astounding height of 1.96 m. at the end of the race, he looked to his right, expecting to find challengers but it was empty.

all eyes on puma now, i believe. go usain bolt, the bolt of lightning. looking forward to see him breaking his own record again.

but among all this happiness and being awestruck at bolt, im emoing for powell. quite sad, i wanted him to win and i believe he's capable of winning. but sadly, people don't always perform when they need to. before the race, i could tell that powell was really very scared. haiz, too much pressure on him. his start was great, as usual but he gave up at around 50-60m. i was hoping that he would end up side by side with bolt, and bolt would be decided the winner with a photo finish. i really expected asafa to get 2nd. sad, why does he always screw up in big races? ah well, bolt was at his best and powell was not in good shape at all.

but well, asafa had his glorious moments already. bolt deserves to be in the spotlight now.

asafa powell still remains my favourite sprinter. usain bolt is my favourite sprinter too. so that's two favourite sprinters lol.

fight on, asafa powell!

in any case, jamaica will own in 4 by 100 men's relay. usain bolt and asafa powell ftw!

2008-08-10T15:13:00.018+08:00

received the stuff i bought on eastbay last thursday!! :)))

this time, i bought a nike zoom powercat (red sadly, i wanted the black/gold/white one but it was OUT OF STOCK zzz), nike zoom forever (hopefully i can wear it to school) and a few bags of spare spike pins.

look out for pics below :P

the red powercat in the box

side view

low-side view. look at the pins. xmas tree 7 mm.

top view. if you can't see, the size is 9

spike plate and the pins. i didn't put risers.

back view

nike zoom forever in the box

side view

low-side view

back view

top view, size 9 again.

the sole of the forever. erm these arent spikes but i guess u can call them semi-studs. anw this shoe's technically for long d, so they're good on any surface

the 3 packs of xmas tree spike pins i bought. gold, green and blue. and THEY ARE 5 MM DAMMIT. calvin khor said powercat pins are 5mm, but they are 7 MM

everything i bought. wonder why everything is so red this time? O.O

can't wait to try them out :)

2008-08-10T15:00:00.002+08:00

firstly, HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO ALL SINGAPOREANS! (yes this is a day late XD)
had a great national day yesterday, a feast for dinner yesterday! :) mum ordered a party tray of sushi from sakae sushi and it was delicious. and there were a few other dishes too. this year's national day parade was awesome too! 8 mins fireworks was DA BOMB! simply fantastic! if only i was there to catch it on camera/video sigh. i haven't seen fireworks as good as those yesterday since those at disneyland.

AND.... to go a little further back in time, on wednesday night, i went for the chaRIty concert. the one which i got a ticket from ben chin. the concert was quite draggy though, and the emcees were GAY (who? who?). saw wee kuang, chern hwee, mr kenneth kwok and his family, sng zheng's brother, marken, yao'an, jeremy and a few others too.
o and i finally received something on that particular wednesday, but you'd probably know what already, since you already read the post above :P

2008-08-03T02:18:00.002+08:00

second post! (omfg its 2am why am i NOT sleeping yet!!!?? POSTING PICS IS TIRING ZZZ) shall make it short since im really really tired.

since i destroyed my kawasaki racket and my sis looks like she can only use the wilson one, my dad and i decided to buy new head rackets. ah well, try the different brands out ^^

and good news to wai choong/manfred/aloy/giff/alvin/chinjie/wzy (the usual people who come to my house) -- i bought new tennis balls too! :)

some pics again.

everything i bought. the rackets and balls.

the first racket. this racket's head is thinner but longer than the second's.

side view. anyone knows whether HEAD is good?

the second racket. i prefer this racket.

side view

everything we bought. total of 9 balls but i only showed 3.

closeup view. i kinda like this pic, feels artistic rite? :)

shucks. i better go sleep.

2008-08-03T00:51:00.003+08:00

two posts today! this post'll be on track n field finals (this post is SO outdated, i know :/)

ok just a few photos of the track and field finals, specifically on the RI/RJC races, take a look below :D

photos first.

(koped from david's blog) kamarul's A Div 100m race. LOOK AT HIS BODY. HORIZONTAL.

like some bullet dammit.

around 50-60 m i guess. looks pro but looks weird at the same time, eh?

(koped from david's blog) kieran taking the lead in his 4 by 400m race.

poor HCI guy XD

(A div 4 by 100m race)

calvin 1st runner in B div 4 by 100m race

syafiq last runner in B div 4 by 100m race

i think he ran his fastest 100m ever in this race, kudos to him :)

RAFFLES ATHLETICS!!

Cheers to a successful nats this year! Looking forward to nats next yr! ;)

2008-07-27T23:57:00.002+08:00

WE WON INTERCLASS SOCCER!!

WELL DONE, 3T SOCCER PLAYERS!

(now hoping ksp will give us something in return ^^)

2008-07-24T21:54:00.001+08:00

GOOD LUCK to all the 3T soccer players tomorrow! =)

We will win and bring glory to our class!

2008-07-22T21:57:00.002+08:00

the koreans came today! 3 boys and 2 girls, all 15 i guess.
they came in the morning, just when maths started. pretty cool, and they introduced themselves to us. apparently, they're all from an international school in Korea, so that explains why their english was actually quite fluent. AND also the fact that they have english names.

so if i remember correctly, the five were marvin, john, tina, jane and michael. don't ask me for their korean names, i CANNOT remember them XD yep so they're really quite friendly but shy nonetheless, just like viet and nam when they first came to 3T. but we'll still hv a few more days to interact with them, so that's good :)
why are koreans so much better than singaporeans? look at their uniforms, its a LOT better than the RI uniform. and i thought they were rather attentive and polite in class. something that's quite hard to see in singaporean students eh?

maths was the usual, and p lim gave back our performance tasks and ccts. chem the crappy titration and ksp scolding us stupid and all sorts of things. english same old boring things. philo sleeping lesson but i took the time to talk with marvin, because we were doing the community of inquiry thing. got to know him a bit more and found out that he likes basketball. mayb i should tell this to ben ng? O.O
chinese was quite a joke today. before chinese, alvin realised he forgot to bring his textbook AGAIN. and i BET he did this purposely. he went to 3R (where our chinese was teaching right then) and asked the whole class in front of her "wo ke yi jie ke ben ma? (can i borrow a textbook?) LOL! seriously he's really made out for a comedian =)

and during the lesson, when ming chan was reading the textbook,
"很多人从小就贪睡... -pauses- 懒觉" (notice i bolded it so you know how he read it XD)
-class roars with laughter- :PP

2008-07-21T21:02:00.003+08:00

quiz from ervin! i just saw it so i shall double-post today :P

1. The person who passed you this quiz is....
ervin

2. Your relationship with him/her is....
classmates? friends.

3. Your 5 impressions of him
HMM HMM -thinkshard- *veryhard*
1) abit kiasu XD
2) science pro
3) table tennis player
4) HARDCORE morrison lover!!
5) jiaxuan's TWIN - mr quek even said he thought ervin was jiaxuan this morning lols

4. The most memorable thing he has done for you
wah, this is a HARD question. help me play goalkeep when i was tired XD (i just cant think of anything memorable)

5. The most memorable words he has said to you
"help us (morrison) cheer :D"

6. If he becomes your lover, you will....
punch him to wake him up (i'm NOT gay!)

7. If he becomes your lover, things he should improve on....
i'm gonna SKIP this question.

8. If he becomes your enemy, i will...
not bother XD.

9. If he becomes your enemy, the reason will be...
me owning him in science

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him now is
buy NON-blue specs

11. Your overall impression of him is
he loves morrison. he looks like jiaxuan. wait he IS jiaxuan. both got the same mentality and attitude. he's a bit kiasu at times XD. good in science, and probably not bad in table tennis too :)

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
maybe i'm a bit too crazy at times lols. too playful. and ben says i shouldnt smile so much :D
but i can be real EMO when something sad happens

13. The characteristics you love about yourself are:
always wants to make friends. not THAT bad at tennis? and not that bad at track too lols

14. The characteristics you hate about yourself are:
easily misunderstood to be emo-ing =.= and i want to grow a few cm taller AND jump higher AND jump further AND run faster. the list continues...

15. The most ideal person you want to be is...
hard to say really. no one is really that ideal for me. i want to be a mix of many people.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them...
this is quite a heartwarming question for a quiz lol. so, thanks to everyone who care about me!

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you. (shouldn't this question be at the beginning or end of the quiz? O.O)
so here goes the list (random order ya?) :
1) jethro
2) lin jin
3) chern hwee
4) haozhi
5) germaine
6) ervin - (you don't have to do the quiz again lols)
7) celestine
8) hiok yang
9) ben chin
10) benjamin (and this one is my bro)

18. Who is no. 6 having a relationship with at the moment? (ervin)
HMM HMM WHO AR?? i won't say anymore lest he kills me tmr XD

19. Is no. 9 a male or female? (ben chin)
male. =.= quite a lame question.

20. If no. 7 and no. 10 are together, will it be a good thing? (celestine and benjamin)
HAHA. lolz. ok it's possible but, i guess probably not. since no. 10 has someone already? :D

21. How about no. 8 and no.5? (hiok yang and germaine)
gosh. impossible! hiok doesnt even know germaine at all and they're very very different
but i heard hiok already has some mountain *snickers* ?

22. What is no. 2 studying? (lin jin)
same class as me, what do you think? triple science and geog.

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? (chern hwee)
while i'm writing this post. and while she's finally updating her blog :P

24. What kind of music band does no. 8 like? (hiok yang)
not really sure about this O.O probably rock/alternative

25. Does no. 1 has any siblings? (jethro)
one brother.

26. Will you woo no. 3? (chern hwee)
xinyan is lame :PP

27. How about no.7? (celestine)
i think she's wanted by someone else already XD

28. Is no.4 single? (haozhi)
wow! single my foot

30. What is the hobby of no. 4? (haozhi)
flirting! lolz i bet hiok would agree with me for this :P
ok to be honest, i don't really know, hmm maybe listening to chinese songs

31. Do no. 5 and no.9 get along well? (germaine and ben chin)
they haven't met before.

32. Where is no. 2 studying at? (lin jin)
RI. same class as me remember??

33. Say something casually about no. 1 (jethro)
can i quote someone else? XD
"but jethro can be a bit annoying when he emo" :PP

34. Have you tried developing feelings for no. 8? (hiok yang)
OMFG! HIOK YANG! NEVER! because i'm not gay.

35. Where does no. 9 live at? (ben chin)
some condo at siglap. rich guy zzz

36. What colour does no. 4 like? (haozhi)
not sure though... but i guess its blue? o wait nono! black! he loves black socks especially! (he's always looking out whether i wear the same black socks as him =.=)

37. Are no. 5 and 1 best friends? (germaine and jethro)
they dont know each other. though i think jethro will probably piss her off XD. seriously.

38. Does no. 7 like no. 1? (celestine and jethro)
they dont know each other AGAIN.

39. How did you get to know no. 2? (lin jin)
my classmate this year! :D 3Taupok forever :) o well and he sits in the same row as me, manfred and hiok.

40. Does no. 1 have any pets? (jethro)
don't think so. not that i know of O.O

41. Is no. 7 the sexiest girl in the world? (celestine)
lolz. she'll KILL me if i say anything bad.

42. Do you think it's possible if no. 4 and no. 5 date each other? (haozhi and germaine)
possible definitely. but first he's got to KNOW who she is.

43. Say something more about no. 6... (ervin)
table tennis. always wears that shorts with the butterfly brand. cares about his 2.4 a LOT.

44. What is your relationship with no. 9? (ben chin)
friends. quite good friends. classmates. and my cousin goes to the same church as him. and he helped me a lot for something which i'm really thankful for.

45. List all the schools that no. 1 to no. 10 are in and originally from.
jethro : not sure which primary school -- RI
linjin : woodlands primary -- RI
chern hwee: nanyang primary -- RGS
haozhi: hongwen primary -- RI
germaine: elias park primary -- pasir ris crest secondary
ervin: aitong primary -- RI
celestine: elias park primary -- tanjong katong sec
hiok yang: tao nan primary -- RI
ben chin: tao nan primary -- RI
benjamin: tao nan primary -- RI

46. What would you do if no. 10 hates you? (benjamin)
say sorry. try to stop him from hating me. well he should never hate me RIGHT?

47. Which of the following are in a relationship?
i better leave this question blank. :P

48. How did you first meet no. 3? (chern hwee)
track and field! lols isnt this quite obvious :D

49. How would you react if no. 3 and no. 10 are together? (chern hwee and benjamin)
impossible! anw i'll kill no. 10 if that's the case *evil face*

50. Last question! (finally) What would you do if no. 4 tells you she's pregnant? (haozhi)
O PURLEASE. it's a he btw.

2008-07-21T20:33:00.002+08:00

today marks the end of my break T.T damn it, why cant APCG just extend for one more week?
anw yea, so school resumed today. the usual stuff and life in school. getting suanned about all sorts of things, the lame jokes from the teachers, and yea of course, all the fun stuff too :D
so today was racial harmony day. just a few performances and videos, i thought it wasnt that interesting this year O.O
PE WAS DISAPPOINTING TODAY TOO, cause it RAINED. zzz. and we havent touched volleyball ever since week 2.
physics was disappointing too. for the first time in my life, i failed a physics test. 3/10. and according to mrs tay, it was very easy and well, almost the whole class got 8-10. sad. i think i shouldn't have done the test after my 100mH.

and earlier in the day, some students from china and korea came. so they're gonna join us for a few days. but we're having the korean students. 3 girls and 2 boys i heard. and they're coming tomorrow. quite cool, i've never interacted with a student from other countries before, and this time, they're gonna live through our school lives together with us, so i'm sure it's going to be a great experience :)

a short post today since i have no homework - and i don't want to spend too much of the free time on blogging XD

2008-07-17T12:35:00.004+08:00

track inter-school nats yesterday! C div - 7th and B div - 2nd and A div - 1st
the most exciting one out of the 3 i've attended in my life.
ok let's see, arrived at choa chu kang at around 2 and missed the team talk lol. didnt know where it was and even when jiaxuan and i were at the correct place, he kept insisting that it was wrong =.=
anw erm 100m C girls. cant' really remember much XD
100 m C boys. these c boys are BIG size and are as muscular as most of the B boys. quite scary in fact. and HCI owned with a timing of 11.89. 11.89!! c div! really quite impressive.
100 m B girls. again sports school won.
100 m B boys. calvin's the only guy from RI and he did 12.06. (does he like have some affinity with 12.06? he's done 12.06 thrice alr i tink) 6th placing. 1st guy 11.54. i think that's even faster than syafiq. but i was quite surprised that there was no hwa chong guy O.O
100 m A girls. joanna owned with 12.86 (the only sub-13 timing). o and it was really funny after she won. everyone was going "eh congratulations kieran! well done kieran!" and trying to shake kieran's hand. lol poor kieran, had to escape to the upper seats :P
100 m A boys. VERY exciting! kamarul and aaron were in. everyone was looking at kamarul and his performance was totally awesome. at the start, the ACS guy beside him had a damn powerful start and was ahead of everyone and kamarul was behind him. eh that acs guy seriously has some imba start, he totally shot out of his blocks. and kamarul was chasing behind. chase chase and chase. then overtook the acs guy at around 60 m. definitely classic. just sped past the acs guy and the poor acs guy was struggling to keep up. so kamarul won with 11.20, and that's not his personal best i think. anw really very impressive race.
800 m girls after that and i think i didn't really watch this one.
1500m C boys. quite a difficult race for nathaniel and benjamin, but i think they still did well =)
1500m B boys. good and exciting race. zhiming, shikai and guanlin were leading all the way throughout the race and were gonna get top 3. then, on the last lap, some SJI guy sped up and overtook all of them. quite shocking (i think that was the time when the prefects started to cheer a bit XD). so, last 100m or so was trying to catch up with the SJI guy. zhiming caught up with him and won just by a few milliseconds. shikai came up after that and got 3rd. yup, guanlin got 4th. quite sad. should have gotten 3rd.
1500m A boys. rui yong got 3rd and some other rjc guy got 2nd.
ah here comes the relays. the most exciting races of the day.
4 by 1 C girls. can't really remember much but rgs got 4th. nearly caught up with nanyang. not sure whether hemin ran, i think benjamin will be interested :P
4 by 1 C boys. 1st runner - jin heng, 2nd runner - jethro, 3rd runner - fu kai, 4th runner - ezra. i think they didn't do as well as they should have. jin heng with his usual penguin run XD, but jethro was really fast. he closed up quite a bit of the gap from the acs team, fukai was quite ok, and ezra a bit disappointing. 48.22. but well done :)
4 by 1 B girls. rgs not in. sports school won.
4 by 1 B boys. omg this one was bloody screwed up. 1st runner - calvin, 2nd runner - junrui, 3rd runner - kieran, 4th runner - syafiq. the two idiots in lane 1 and 2 false-started, and then the officials dont even know that the runners cant hear whistles (you have to shoot the gun a second time!), so in the end, all the 1st runners and 2nd runners except the ones from ngee ann and st patrick's ran and only realised it was a false start when they reached the 3rd runners. bloody unfair! this way, only the ngee ann and st patrick's teams were not tired since they didn't run. and we were supposed to win this race. almost 100% chance since hwa chong and sports school were both disqualified. in the end, the race was delayed. went back to it after the A girls relay. i think calvin and junrui were quite tired, but they still ran well. syafiq was impressive again, as usual. probably ran his best. chased a few of the leading teams and almost won sji by a tiny fraction. SJI got 1st with 44.79 and we got 2nd with 44.82 . kudos to syafiq for fighting all the way.
4 by 1 A girls. lost to hwachong.
4 by 1 A boys. looked like an easy win for us =) since kamarul was like smiling during the race XD
4 by 4 C girls. RGS got 4th! close fight with nygh
4 by 4 C boys. i dont know who ran for us, but we got 7th and missed 6th by just 1 millisecond
4 by 4 B girls. RGS 4th again. i only know chern hwee ran, dont know who were the other 3. but still well done :)
4 by 4 B boys. matthias, kieran, guan lin and yeong yang. we got 5th, nearly beating cat high. and i saw jamie ross coates' imbaness for the first time lol. heard he broke the 400 m record.
4 by 4 A girls. 3rd. 4 by 4 A boys. 3rd.
and this is random but, judo's b div got 2nd and a div got 1st too. pure coincidence?

went for dinner after that at swensens in suntec. the RI track team together with the RG track team. we were all damn noisy and apparently got complaints from other diners at swensens. and jethro kept pestering me while i was eating. haha but really enjoyed it at swensens.
cheers to a successful nats! :D and next year, we'll fight back and get our challenge trophy!

2008-07-12T23:22:00.019+08:00

omg i WANT an iPhone!!! hope i have one soon :)
anw finished watching death note anime early in the morning and firstly have to say, death note is fckin' intense and good. i'd recommend to anyone who wants to watch an anime that can hook you to your chair for the whole day. its like cliff-hanging suspense in every episode, with a little horror (a few rather scary scenes of death gods?), and the mystery in the show completely thrills me. i love this kind of mystery + suspense + a little horror kinda genre. esp. the last episode. it was really satisfying - dramatic, violent and yet beautiful. and looking deeper into the anime, i thought death note conveys really meaningful, impactful and powerful messages to humankind. do we have the right to kill, even if the people we kill are criminals who have done bad, or even fugitives awaiting a death sentence? think about that.

BUT the main part of my post today is on the iPhone, so we shall leave Death Note aside :P
as i was saying earlier, finished watching death note early in the morning and found nothing to do. no anime, no games, nothing. sad. and dexter talked to me, asked me what's a billing address and eventually explained he was ordering an iPod nano, as a birthday gift from his parents. so cheers, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to dexter lim! hope you have luck in your future endeavours and do well in the current hockey competition! fight all the way, i'll be there to support benjamin and you during the finals =) i know your coach doesnt let you play at times, but you'll definitely get many chances to play and shine, so don't worry k? --now back to iPhone (why is this post digressing to so many things?)--

so i went to checkup ordering iPod nano online and then got really interested in iPhone. Go to here if you want to see the actual website i went to.

ok firstly, the iPhone comes in 2 colours, the black one (on the left) is only available in both 8GB and 16GB versions, while the white one (right) is available only in the 16GB version. it's obviously TOUCH-SCREEN, and compared to the iPod Touch, it has phone capabilities, which makes it a far more worthwhile expense. I want a phone that can be a music/video player and a phone itself, and this iPhone basically provides me everything, and would allow me to save money from buying another mp3 player. furthermore, it has so many capabilities and features, take a look:

as you can see, the iPhone is able to rotate its view screen, such that when the iPhone is horizontal, what you see is well, turned horizontal. this is one thing that i find really useful and really cool.

the picture shows the Home Screen, where a simple touch can take you to any function that the iPhone possesses.

making calls looks cool and easy, doesnt it? just a simple tap on the contact and there you go. the only thing i worry about for this function is that when you put the phone to your ear to listen, your face might accidentally press any button and this could really be a hassle. guess earphones should be a better solution when taking calls. furthermore, the iPhone can access your emails, if i'm not wrong, as long as it's accessible on an online browser, it can be done on the iPhone, with all the 3G capabilities. the iPhone features Safari too, which is a web browser, so i guess that's really useful, though i believe i wont be using this function much.

this is what i LOVE about the iPhone. the iPod in it. this part of it is exactly the same as an iPod Touch, the scrolling through all the music with only your finger, the 3.5" widescreen display and good-quality sound. this is what attracted me the most. and you can watch videos on it too, with its 3.5" screen, its a lot better than many mp3/video players on the market.

i thought this new interface for sms was quite cool! the smses are arranged in a chat-style, so it becomes sort of like a msn conversation! this way, it's easier to track what you and the recipient you have said and it makes conversing so much more easier and convenient! the only setback, i believe, of this new sms interface is the simple fact that typing is touch-screen. i think this effectively slows down our sms typing speed, esp of teenagers. and there's always the trouble of pressing the wrong letters easily and having to delete.

the GPS function, i thought, wasn't that much useful to me. i dont think i'll need to find my location on a map. mayb the only way i could use it is to get directions from one place to another. if this function does work well, it will be really quite useful, since it saves me the trouble of having to go to streetdirectory.com to find out how to go somewhere.

i like this function quite a lot. the way the calendar works seems to be a lot better than how it works in my current phone. for example, the calendar allows you to plan events that will happen at certain times, but in my current phone, what you have to do is to set a time-frame for the event, and that's all there is to it. in any case, calendar's definitely useful. once again, problem could be typing. the iPhone offers the service of Youtube too, but since my parents will probably disapprove of me using my phone to access Youtube, i wont talk about it. just thought that its quite impressive to use Youtube on phone, but then, the screen's kinda small if you want to watch a movie/anime.

this function attracted me too. it's like even easier scrolling and viewing of pictures than on the computer. camera's 2 mega pixels, not very attractive, but enough for my needs. **coughcoughi'mnotlinjincoughcough** and the iPhone offers stocks, weather, notes too. stocks is definitely useless to me, but maybe my parents could use it any time? weather is quite useful, could always use it to decide whether i should go down for any sports. notes too, but i thought calendar should be sufficient in this aspect.

see? this function's way cool. normal calculator when vertical, and when horizontal, it changes into a scientific calculator! just what i need! really good that it has scientific calculator, which i believe no other phone has to date.

so, interested now? :P

hope that hand in the pic is mine someday. i've started saving up already :)

2008-07-10T23:26:00.000+08:00

you did it.

2008-07-09T20:44:00.004+08:00

you've trained for one month.
though it was short, and definitely too short to master it, you know you'd put in your all.
nowhere good enough to fight to the tops, but you'd know you'll give it your best. definitely.
in life, there's always ups and downs. you do well in one year, and you don't do so well in the other. but it wont stop you. you will fight on.
one month ago, the heavy burden was thrown onto you. no doubt, you faced lots of pressure.
you seemed like the only rookie at it. u practised hard at it, though you didn't seem to progress much.
you fell, and you came back up again. you'd felt the soft track grazing your skin countless times and you sometimes went home with injuries.
you'd remember the shame when you couldnt' do it well. you'd remember how afraid you were to do it, when everyone was staring at you, waiting for you to show an impressive performance.
you'd remember how disheartened you felt, when you saw the helpless smile on your coach's face, as he looked at the time you took to finish the race in his stopwatch.
you'd remember how you felt you were such a letdown, when you saw the disappointment lurking in your teacher's face, even though he always masked it with a smile.
you may not have perfected it yet, you know you may not be fully ready yet, but tomorrow, you just have to do it. no matter what the results is, just try your best.

tomorrow, you'll do it.
run with that fire in you.
burn the track.
just do it.

2008-06-30T21:03:00.005+08:00

finally the matter's at rest. after close to 1 term? -huge sigh of relief- haha maybe just a ~~short~~ reflection.
i guess i can say i learnt quite a lot through this (why do i feel i've gained more than i do in a chem lesson? XD). and i'm rather glad that i've seem to grown in my thinking and attitude towards people? don't really know how to phrase it, but in plain words, i guess you could say i've grown more mature.
ok maybe use jack's words:
"well, after we experience these kind of things and when everything sort of comes to a close, we will feel that we have grown" ~ Jack
i guess, honestly, then, i was really quite sensitive and (how do you say it?) didn't want to "lose face". like even after receiving apologies, i still didn't want to accept them so quickly. i think this is probably one of my worst faults, but well, its gonna change :)
i reflected a lot for this incident and i have to say, i really garnered a lot, and i just have to say this: friendship is precious. treasure it.
yea. and i was thinking that we don't get to be in the same class for 2 years for nothing. this 2 years is for us to get to know new friends, establish new bonds, interact with them, strengthen the bonds and eventually after we leave, these bonds will serve as the only real leftover evidence that we had spent 2 years together, and these 2 years will be the only anchor which can prolong your friendship even past the 2 years, 5 years into the future, 10 years into the future etc. definitely, during these 2 years, there's bound to be conflicts between you and some of your classmates, but first tell yourself: Why continue with the conflict when your have only less than 2 years left? will you really be satisfied, if at the end of the 2 years, both of your are still at loggerheads? what will come to your mind when you think back?
those who have resolved conflicts with their peers before should know that it feels so much better and it feels as though an intangible bond of friendship seems to become more solid and stronger, and from then, you can grab on to this fragile but still solid bond and it will eventually get stronger and stronger as time passes.
and it just sucks when you're not on good terms with a peer, and it just bugs you like mad. trust me, it sux. so why close the door on yourself and shut yourself out when you can easily get outside under the bright sun and enjoy the warmth? actually realistically, in the future when you leave the comfort zones of the school, who is actually there for you? when you desperately need help or need some serious support, who will actually be there for you? there won't be any teacher or any guardian who will help you out, just like in schools. so that's where your friends come in. of course, i'm not forgetting our families too, but realistically speaking, your parents are older than you (and not counting your siblings), your friends are probably the ones who will follow you through your life, from even before kindergarten all the way to the day you leave this world! look, even parents don't follow you for the whole of your life.

so i just want to tell this to those people who are still in conflicts with your classmates etc:
go and resolve it. no point mulling over it all day and being too egoistic to even say a simple "sorry". avoiding isnt the solution. like what i said, so what if you can avoid each other for the whole of 2 years? will you be proud of this feat? or would you rather be proud of having been good friends with that person for 2 years? and it takes both sides to patch up. one side acting won't do it. don't expect the other person to come and apologise or talk to you (even if he IS really the one at fault), ask yourself, maybe that person is afraid to talk to you? and even if you're angry at him, you should at least give him a chance to say sorry to you, because saying sorry is never easy. why not just losing a bit of face and sacrificing a bit of time to try talking to that person? if you do, that person will probably not remember you "losing face" but instead remember the fact that you treasured the friendship and wanted to patch up. and that's what strengthens the friendship bond too.
mayb something as simple as "i'm sorry, i know i'm at fault too, can we patch up?" would work, the difficult part is just to say it. maybe if you remind yourself that both of you have less than 2 years left, you'll realise that you'd want to solve the problem. at least for me, i told myself i didn't want to make the same mistake that i did 2 years ago. don't be afraid of the person disliking you, no one can dislike you forever. and that person probably wants to patch up too, even though he does not show it.

though one term has been such a long long time, and it really IS a lot (that's 1/8 of the time you get to spend together with your friends), i still dont think its all that wasted. even though for nearly a whole term, i haven't been on good terms with someone, i still dont think the time was wasted. at least i learnt a lot and i know i'm not going to make this kind of mistakes anymore. AND after all, it's all ok now! i'm really really glad that it worked out. yea, my vocab isnt that good and i'm not going to search the thesaurus for more synonyms of happy. at least now i know we're probably even better friends, now that we've resolved our conflict. and i know by the end of 2009, when we leave the class, i won't leave the class with regrets and i will be glad that i had patched up with him. so, from now on, no more emo posts!! (there you go ervin!) haha :P

actually wrote this post to thank some people, but i got carried away and reflected a lot, but here's the list of ppl i have to thank (no particular order):

jack - for his quote lol, kidding. erm, his patience and he helped me a lot.
jim - erm patience too, willing to listen to me
haozhi - for his help of course! thx a bunch
ryoji, alvin, wu, giff and benjamin - for giving me advice, esp. benjamin for making me see that i was at fault too
hiok for listening to me and his advice (though he told me stuff like "must pay back! he dao you then you must dao him back!" )
ben nah - for expressing concern and helping me even though i didnt ask him to
dom - for the same reason as ben nah! and he was rather daring lol
teng chuan and roy - for dunno how they found out about this and then expressed concern
and ben chin! - i really owe him one, thank you so much!
and lol, this one must put as the last one, because without him, this wouldnt have happened - parry tan, for being willing to patch up :)

so we're cool, huh? good friends from now on :)

2008-06-29T21:01:00.003+08:00

aaah! school tmr! i dont want to go to school T.T

you've tried your best.
be prepared for the worst.
just be prepared.

2008-06-29T02:00:00.003+08:00

yes i know its late. 2 am. why i'm posting so late: because i've been writing a letter since 11 pm, and i think its worth the time. so there.

i'm dead. i'm tired. i'm dead and tired. i'm dead tired.
coffee doesnt even seem to work now T.T

all the back-to-back trainings and school work and such, and its an excruciating 2 more weeks to my long break!

time to sleep.

2008-06-23T20:20:00.002+08:00

next time i won't hope for too much.

2008-06-21T13:29:00.011+08:00

19th June : mini mini Amazing Race!! --the fun part of our 2 day programme--
as the description says, 19th june was a mini amazing race. logistics planning was a killer though. i was like bloody loaded with stuff to do like few days before the race. anw, so for this activity, we had 10 children, so 3 groups with 3 leaders for each group. (3 sec 3s for each group seems like a lot? nah. seriously.) lets see, we had 3 groups.
group 1 -- me, wenda, wai choong
group 2 -- ernest, brandon, alvin
group 3 -- ryoji, alex, chevy
stationmasters - skai, zi jian, francis
children in my group were wayne, seng wee, keat wee and benjamin. went out for the amazing race and really had a lot a lot of fun! i really find service-learning meaningful, enriching and yet fun at the same time :D will definitely go back to volunteer :D this activity really had SO MANY things and im feeling sian to type them all out, gonna be damn damn long, so just have a look at the pics (please do not copy for your own use)

walking with wenda (the black one with the bag) taking the rear but where am i???

3 of them resting (l-r: keat wee, wayne, seng wee)

isnt wayne cute? :D i love this pic :)

francis, wu and skai (francis and skai were stationmasters)

keat wee and benjamin leading the way

another pic of wayne

(l-r : sebastian, patrick, alvin)

the main door of the centre. (random photo?)

calculating the scores (bottom row l-r: skai, me, ryoji, alex, francis) (top row l-r: ernest, chevy, wenda)

playing roadside rescue

for more pictures, please go to http://www.flickr.com/photos/dedricktan1202/sets/72157605768513732
as for the helpers who want the photos which show them (go to the above link and find), please call me or something, then i'll send them to you at the original resolution

finally, a big THANK YOU to everyone who helped us that day! cheers to a successful RE activity! :D

2008-06-21T12:42:00.004+08:00

yay its over! our RE activities on 17th and 19th June (which we took aeons to plan) is now over! i really had a great time, from the initial planning and conducting the activities itself!
anw, just a brief intro about my project. my group's SL organisation is Hougang Student Care Services Centre. so, our main task was to organise an activity for primary school students with behavioural problems.
so many things happened in these two day's activities so i'm not going to type them all out because that will take YOU ages to read, so look out for pics below
17th June:
this was our first day of activity. i was really really very nervous and anxious, but nonetheless excited at the same time. i didn't know what to expect, and i was imagining children running everywhere and refusing to listening to us. i reached there at 9.30 with wenda, ryoji, ernest, chevy, brandon and alvin. i think out of all of us, only chevy, alvin and i have prior experience dealing with children, so basically we're all quite rookies la. and we werent' really prepared for one thing, the whole lesson was gonna be impromptu =.=
so anw the kids came in at about 10 and then they were very rowdy. they're all either p5 or p6 and from different primary schools. took some time to settle them down and eventually we started with a simple introduction with everyone sitting in a circle. there was a total of 12 children (9 boys and 3 girls if im not wrong), and there were 7 of us (sec 3s). looks like it shouldnt be too hard for us to handle them, right? well we did think that way and realised how WRONG we were. so we went on with this icebreaker game where one two people sit facing each other with a groundsheet between them, and when the groundsheet drops, they race to say each other's names (remember we played this in sec 1 orientation!!??) things got wrong at this point. we started facing problems from 3 particular boys, sebastian, patrick and chit guang. these 3 are particularly hyperactive and they refused to play the game and cooperate with us. actually apart from them, the other 9 children are really quite easy to handle. but these 3 required like 4 of us to attend to them, and so there was only 3 sec 3s left to deal with the rest of the children.
after that, we started with the main lesson. powerpoint slide and vanguard sheets on map-reading. it was really quite a success. apart from the 3 boys, the rest participated actively and i admit it was really very very fun to teach them. it's like the complete opposite of what happens in ksp's class (how do i describe this? lets just say no one participates in ksp's class). encountered quite a few problems during the teaching but i think it was generally well done. after that, we let them play with tangrams and rush hour.
during the lesson, we worked with them in these tiny mini-groups. if i dont remember wrongly, the children in my group were wayne, amirah, shanizam, jia min, seng wee and pei ting. these 6 are really nice children, not really problematic. wayne's the most active boy, very cheerful and sunny. amirah, jiamin and peiting were the only 3 girls and i think they are the more introverted type. seng wee too. but, it kinda balanced out because wayne's so active, while the rest are not that active. and wayne is really very very cute, haha. the kind which you really cant resist pinching his cheeks and saying "kawaii" lol.

so anw, it was really very fun and i learnt a lot from the activity. i got to know some of them, and i loved interacting with them. i think though, this activity could have been improved, but still a job well done :D i'll post pictures soon, because i havent gotten them from ryoji.
thanks to all those who came to help us!

2008-06-16T22:46:00.006+08:00

RE activity tomorrow and on thursday!!

pray for good luck and for good weather on thursday!

looking forward to interact with the children :D

2008-06-09T23:25:00.001+08:00

i saw this on hiok's blog and i want to put it here too.

' Like always, after something big happens, we tend to look back and think "i should have done that instead." maybe thats just human nature. '

since the last day of term 2, i stopped going online on msn messenger.
some have asked me why i have not went online for a single second since then and i thank you for your concern.
deep down in my heart, i asked myself this, but yet i couldn't answer myself too. am i hiding from something? am i clinging onto hope which i pray is not false? am i waiting for something to happen?
i know, a few days back, i convinced myself that i was not going online because i was waiting for a chance, i was waiting for someone to come online and then i'll use the chance.
he did, yes. but even when he did, i couldn't get myself to change my status to online. i remember that day when it happened, my mind was really in a whirl. i realised that even if he did come online, i couldn't do anything. so what if i really did go online? what would have happened? what difference would it be?
wu was at my house today and he mentioned the fact that i was not going online. i couldn't even give a reply to that at all.

thanks ben chin anw, even though you didn't manage to do it.

i'll just hide in the shadows and wallow in the loneliness.
just when i was seeing hope, it got dashed.

i'm really sorry for emo-ing, but sometimes i really just can't help it, because i feel i'm useless? i can't deal with a simple matter?
maybe using training as spiritual therapy is not enough. am i losing confidence and faith in what i'm doing. this morning, i was tempted to even pon training for the rest of the hols. but i thank wzy for making me not do so.

even the wounds on my leg don't hurt that much.

2008-06-07T10:40:00.000+08:00

aaAARRrrrGGGHH!! RE (!!) is stressing me out T.T

i just realised how much we've been slacking for RE, and now that there's only about one more week to our activity, we have so much to do.
just SO many things to do zzz

why am i wasting my time here. shouldnt.i.be.doing.RE.

take it as a test.

2008-06-05T11:30:00.000+08:00

feeling damn sian with homework, so its an early post today! here's a quiz from alvin and jack, coincidentally, since both of them put me as one of the 8 to do it

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below and add in your personal question then tag 8 people in your list, list them out in the end of this post. Notify them in their chatbox that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have a blessing from all.

Q1: Do you like your present school?
yep. love it. friends, cca, some teachers and the facilities.

Q2: What do you want the most now?
to play tennis or basketball. but its RAINING. ZZZ

Q3: Who is the closest person to you in your school?
hmm, really hard to say. i'll just say someone from my class, since i think its the most appropriate for this question. manfred, i guess, since he sits beside me lols. or maybe jiaxuan? since he's in my class and same cca.

Q4: Do you hate your friends sometimes?
have to admit, yes. especially when they do something which really affects me badly. but i'll always try to patch up, if i can.

Q5: If you could change something in your life, what would it be?
can i change more than one thing please? because i would seriously change lots of things. seriously lots of things. like my performance in school, in cca etc. and there are some things that i regret. i dont want to elaborate.

Q6 What is one thing in your life you would never change if you had the chance?
my friends! especially the close ones AND well this is kinda embarrassing, my teddy bear XD

Q7: Do you believe in love at first sight?
definitely. it's that joyful feeling that makes you feel like you're in the air.

Q8: Do you believe in eternal love?
i dunno really. i haven't fallen in love before. but who doesnt want love to last?

Q9: Have you ever broken someone's heart that he/she wants to commit suicide?
i hope not, lol. don't think anyone was ever that smitten with me O.O
but i think i have made people really sad before. i've made some friends feel bad or not talk to them or refuse to forgive them or been angry at them or did something to make them upset. for all those times, i'm sorry.

Q10:What do you enjoy doing the most?
watch anime! jumping (and maybe sprinting)! playing tennis! and maybe hockey too! ice skating too! watching my favourite shows on tv! listening to hours and hours of music! playing xbox! chatting on msn! going out with my friends! just taking a nice sleep when the weather's cool!
aha, never ending list.

Q11: What is your best friend/ideal best friend like?
i have a few friends whom i really want to call best. but since they're quite different, i'll answer the 2nd part. my ideal best friend would be someone who is willing to talk to me, does his best to cheer me up when i'm down, helps me when i need it, encourages me, share jokes with me, someone whom i can trust, and someone who can let me be myself and laugh heartily with him/her.

Q12: What part don't you like about yourself?
quite a weird question O.O is this talking about my physical self? if so, then my spine. why? it's just a medical condition.

Q13: Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yep. friendship is precious.

Q14: Who would you probably spend the rest of your life with?
HER

Q15: What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
living a life that you're happy with.

Q16: Do you find life meaningless?
what's the meaning of life? this is the kind of cheeem cheem philosophy question that i don't like to answer =.=

Q17: What do you live for?
i think no one can really give an answer that they know is correct deep down in their hearts. i guess the answer isnt fixed, we can live for many things and it's just all these things that drive us to wake up each day?
maybe to give a better answer, i should ask myself, "why don't i commit suicide?", and there i'll have my answer.

Q18: Who do you talk most to in school?
right now, i guess it should be my classmates. can't really pick one, it's just the people around me.

Q20:When do you think is the right time for relationships?
boy-girl ones? perhaps jc? or somewhere after that

that ends it. erm, i seriously dunno which question to change. take your pick.
and i think the 8 people to do it should be the same as the last quiz. or anyone else who wants to do it.

2008-06-04T22:30:00.000+08:00

here's a quiz from jack (and the first ever in my blog)!

A)people who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
B)tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. these people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1.If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
hmm, i'll definitely get angry, maybe emo after that

#2.If I could wish for 10 things,what would be the most important wish of all?
10 things only!!?? sigh everything's so important, but i guess it should be being successful in life, which means being successful in my career and also successful as a member of my family

#3.What will your dream wedding be like?
together with the girl in my heart, lols.
situation 1: at tokyo disneyland, in adventureland, beside the beautiful christmas tree and watching the dazzling fireworks behind the castle and dining at the crystal palace restaurant
situation 2: at the heart of universal studios japan, in the magical streets with the disney fairytale atmosphere, where a large christmas tree stands and colourful lights dazzle, and dining at one of the many restaurants that line the streets

#4.What would you do with a billion dollars?
my wish-list! buy the stuff in my wish-list (plus some other stuff that i've not written there), and go to japan again! disneyland and universal studios! as for the leftover, take some for savings and the rest to charity!
however, if i get more than a billion, i'll just do the above + build another Disneyland!

#5.What's your ideal lover like? (i've gotta be careful with my answer ^^)
someone bubbly? has nice personality and someone who loves me truly. someone who never fails to brighten me when i think about her. someone whom i know i want to spend my life with.

#6.Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved by someone. loving someone can be blissful, but it can be tough and tiring too. knowing that you're loved by someone is probably more blessed, who doesnt want to be showered with love?

#7.How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
as long as i can.

#8.If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
sigh, life's sad moments.

#9.Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
yes. loss. the one i've been trying to solve since term 2.

#10.What cheers you up the fastest?
when i'm with my friends. in cca, eating lunch, going out, playing sports

#11.How do you see yourself in ten years time?
a grown up carving out his own life and happiness

#12.Who are currently the most important people to you?
people who care about me and whom i care about

#13.What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
jack? never knew such a good friend before. nice and helpful person.

#14.Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
married but poor. love is more precious than money. money can always be earned in the future.

#15.What's the first thing you do every morning?
feel around for the alarm clock and.
realise its not there. (because my mum purposely puts it far away to stop me from muting it =.=)

#16.Would you give all in a relationship?
definitely.

#17.If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
the one who loves me. if both do, i'll try spending some time with each of them only, and after awhile, i should be able to pick the one that i know i want to spend my life with.

#18.What type of friends do you like?
those who are understanding, fun to be with, cheer you up when you're down, help you in times of need, and especially those whom you know you definitely can put your trust in

lastly, 8 person to do this quiz (i can only pick 7 since i dont have many links and some of them are doing it/have already done it) - benjamin, celestine, chin jie, clara, germaine, gifford and hao zhi

2008-06-03T22:53:00.000+08:00

i've been addicted to this song, check out the acoustic versions too!

Misery Business by Paramore

Misery Business by Paramore - the original music video

this is DA boMiseryBusiness (haha just realised the mb thing when i typed it) -- acoustic version #1

2008-06-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

nothing much to blog during hols, so i just went to do some fun stuff for this blog

i'm a sagittarius, yes. wake up, if you dint realise =.=
anyway, this is really VERY accurate. when i read it, i was shocked, some of the descriptions really quite true isnt it?
but NO COMMENTS for "very pretty" and"great in sex", i'll leave the latter for someone to find out XD
anw, GO try it out, just click on the scroll and it'll link you

hmm this one, maybe not as amazing as the sagittarius one, but well, somewhat true.

red and pink. AHA! look at the last post, red shoes! although i've never worn them yet.

lucky numbers... well i can see 26 (my index number) in there, and 23 (last year's index number), and 9 (primary school index number)
other than that, i really cant link to these numbers O.O

that's all for today, going choa chu kang at 7 tmr T.T
o had 200m for swift meet yesterday, not too good and not too bad. but the officials really damn screwed up. they made a complete mess out of the lane placements and made everyone wait damn long.
and i'm getting a present for wzy, together with wu. any suggestions what i should get?

2008-05-29T12:08:00.001+08:00

i guess i got kinda affected by In Her Shoes XD

anw, bought this pair of shoes on tuesday, i thought they were really nice

AND..... they're finally here! yes, my spikes!

i can't wait to try them out!

2008-05-26T23:22:00.000+08:00

terrible day.

haozhi and jim should know what happened to me after training. first time i felt so terrible after training. i'm quite sure normally, i wouldnt feel that horrible. i guess everything just sort of hit me and rushed up my head. all the past few weeks' problems, all the hope that i tried to get in solving my problems, and all the disappointment i felt.
it was horrible.
and the pain lasted the whole day.

going to school for cca feels good . not that staying home sucks. but at least, during these few weeks of rest, when i go for cca, i can at least forget all the stress and the problem weighing me down, talk with the other track mates and at least smile or laugh heartily (no matter how forced or fake these smiles and laughs are) even if these smiles or laughs are a facade, an act to put on a brave front.
at home, when i'm all alone, despondence just creeps into me and it tires me out. not a nice feeling definitely.

saw shaun thium at the food court this afternoon. the sight of him just woke my senses, made me realise my mistake in sec 1, and is this a shadowing of the present? it struck me hard that this time, i made a similar mistake, but i know, i want to correct it! really felt quite bad when i realised how badly i handled the matter.
however, it was quite fun when i was eating with kieran, wang kwan, said, jim and haozhi. like good friends all around me and during that few minutes which i ate with them, i really felt very carefree, that nothing would weigh me down at all. i think that was the only time today that i really smiled and laughed- true laughs and smiles. i should really treasure the few years we have left together, after all, they are the ones who are by my side at training, giving me advice, occasionally providing me encouragement, and also teasing me to brighten my spirits.

but, like i said, terrible day today. went back home and asked my sister to play tennis with me. she couldnt but i was adamant and she got quite pissed. ended up quarreling with her.
i know it's not her fault, she's taking her A levels this year, i really shouldnt have quarreled with her.
at night, i drank this soybean milk and found that it was spoiled. really couldnt control myself and shouted a vulgarity in anger. got angry with my mum and dad, and they're of course, still angry now.

i've already lost an uncle and probably lost a friend, what else must i lose?
i made the same mistake which i told myself i would never make again 2 years ago, and i was so petty to wait for someone to come and apologise to me directly, when i definitely could have gone to tell him i'm not angry at him anymore.
i think i'll just use this holiday as a period to slowly forget my problems, to get stronger physically and mentally, and to start afresh in term 3.

i need a breather. i think i really need to relax, destress a bit.

2008-05-25T10:34:00.000+08:00

From the In Her Shoes film

"The... art... of... losing...isn't hard to...master. So many... things...may... seem... file...seem...filled...with the... intent...to be... lost...that their... loss...is no...disaster. Lose... some...something every day. Ac-Accept the fluster...of lost door keys. I lost... two cities...two... rivers...a... contin...continen... continent. I... miss them...but it wasn't a... disaster. Even... losing you...the joking voice...a... gesture...I love...I... shan't have lied. It's... evi-evident...the... art... of losing's...not too hard to master...though it look...though it may look...like...like...disaster."
Well, what do you think? Good. Unacceptable answer.What's the poem about? - I don't know.- Yes, you do. What's it about? - Losing?- What? - Love?- Ah. And how about that? Is the love lost already? Is Bishop writing about itas a possibility, a probability? What? Well... in the beginning,she's talking about... losing real things, like keys. And then she... she gets, like... she lost a continent. - She's getting grandiose.- Yeah. And the way she says it is like...like it doesn't matter.Ah. Her tone...would you call it detached? I think she wantsto sound detached. You know,she wants to... sound... like it doesn't matter... 'cause she knows, deep down... how bad it's gonna feel to lose. Lose what? Or whom? Is it a lover? No. It's a friend.

2008-05-23T21:32:00.000+08:00

i failed.

looking back, i cant help but think where i had gone wrong.

"Procrastination usually results in sorrowful regret. Today's duties put off until tomorrow give us a double burden to bear; the best way is to do them in their proper time."
"Regrets are idle; yet history is one long regret. Everything might have turned out so differently."

how true.

2008-05-22T20:05:00.001+08:00

it's the last day of school tmr. the first time i'm not looking forward to the last day of school.
tomorrow's friday already and i'm really getting scared. i don't want to drag things on to term 3.

why doesnt he just understand? i'm not angry at him for teasing me, i'm unhappy at him because he's afraid to say sorry - daoing me, and since he's doing it, what else can i do?

somehow, i blame myself for not trying to end this whole thing sooner, perhaps it would have been so much better and easier if i had set my mind to do it earlier. no point regretting it now, sigh.

does God answer prayers? last minute prayers? i wonder whether i should pray.

i want to end this term on a nice note. i really want to.
how i wished school wasn't going to end so soon.

2008-05-21T22:22:00.000+08:00

really quite a fun day today, especially during training. in the morning, had talent showcase by teng chuan, for his goalkeeping skills. one goal let in = 1 finger chopped off :P lol, well he still has 10 now.
during geog, got screwed by dr chionh quite a few times. wasnt even playing at all, then she thinks that i'm playing with roy or something =.= anw, i just realised i really have a LOT of projects to do during the holidays, most of them with manfred. i think i should start grouping with other people, at least get the chance to work with them and not work with manfred all the time.
RE was mini community day for us lol, p lim told us to meet her at the visitor's lounge at 1.25 and she brought us into this lavish room with cool chairs. i thought we were going to have meeting there, but sadly no. apparently, she's in charge of packing these 185 goodie bags for i dunno who, so we spent the whole RE period packing stuff into the bags and trying very hard to stuff them into carton boxes. in the end, she gave us each one of the goodie bags :) it's just a black goodie bag (something like environmental bag) with 185 printed on it, and inside were one box of mini mini highlighters, a notebook, telephone card and a bottle of water. kinda dull for a goodie bag, i thought.
training was the fun thing today. i tried a new event, under jun yang and i'm not too bad at it. competiting in this year's nationals for it. but ended up VERY VERY tired after running 300 with matthias. and chenxiang refused (repeat REFUSED) to let me overtake him in 200 and 150, so he kept sticking like glue to the edge of the lane. that ends today's post, im still puzzled over maths homework.

lastly, congrats to ben for getting 1st runners-up for his hockey competition! well done, i think this year your will own the rest :D so lucky la, get a medal, i never ever got a medal in nationals T.T

i still have unfinished stuff that i MUST do before the end of term.
two more days left to do it, and i must must must do it
sometimes, its really very hard.

looking forward to the hols in any case. cheers to the hols! :D

2008-05-20T22:51:00.000+08:00

i dunno whether to be proud of myself. lol.
i managed to suppress a stomachache for 7+ hours XD ever since the start of the 1st lesson

haha. ok dunno why im talking lame stuff. i dont know what to talk about in this post.

cya. :P

2008-05-19T21:22:00.000+08:00

OWNED.

found this video on youtube, and thought it was really cool.

if only i could win a million dollars :D

2008-05-17T23:54:00.001+08:00

open house today was really FUN. first time i saw RI so well-decorated, like some big event in a shopping mall.
reached school at around 7.50 and realised i was the first at the booth. saw steven lim after that, and got bloody scolded. he was scolding me, saying that we were damn late, didn't see instructions or something, i was the only one there, so well, the only one scolded lor. luckily, after that said and hayden came and we managed to set up the booth quite quickly. mr quek finally gave me the raffles athletics shirt that he owed me for 2 1/2 years :)
and the shirt was PINNED ONTO THE BOOTH BOARD =.= heck, just a few tiny holes.
so was stoning in the hall for very long, while hayden talked to all the parents. i didn't explore the other booths in the hall because i didn't want to get near to the other end of the hall. ended up watching the gymnasts jumping for 6 hours (how do they do that!!??) in the middle of the hall, there was this mattress runway and the jumping board, and for HOURS, the gymnasts kept up with their performances of flips and jumps. i wanted to try the jumping and flipping out, but was afraid that my knees would worsen. sad, it really looked quite fun. and i saw this video of me in nationals in sec 1, and i realised how crappy i was then. instead of pole vaulting, i was like pole STANDING. i didn't even extend up or jump much. and mr quek only took a video of me failing the height T.T haha
after my shift, i spent the rest of the day touring the whole school, checking out the other booths and eventually decided to play hockey. wzy came later and after his shift, we played hockey too. to be honest, i think we spent more time playing hockey than in our shifts XD
anw, well done to those who did high jump today, jiaxuan, chander, chi tun etc. and good luck to those taking part in 200m tomorrow. esp, good luck to wzy for trying to go sub 26 secs. :P
going out for a movie with my family tomorrow, i think we're watching IRON MAN. lots of people said its good, so i'm expecting a lot! :)

cheers to a successful open house.

2008-05-16T23:14:00.000+08:00

shall keep it short since its late.

all comers tmr and i'm not going.
open house tmr and i'm going.

and i'm disappointed.

that's all.

2008-05-15T21:34:00.000+08:00

http://drapeddark.blogspot.com/

shared blog with my bro :) either click the above link or scroll down to the links part and click "BIGGIE and little one :D"
have a look at it :P

i said in ytd's post that i would post the vids of java and brandon singing, but then my computer just cant seem to even open .3gp files T.T
surprisingly, mrs tay was fine today in physics, like as though nothing happened in the previous lesson. hope she remains like this though, i think she's a really good teacher. as long as she continues giving M&Ms as rewards for answering questions correctly XD
played soccer for PE today as there were still some people who still havent taken their 2.4 or failed it. some people can really go to great lengths for their 2.4, can you believe ervin actually bought a whole tin of glucose powder, to take it just before his 2.4!!?? i mean, wow is he doing it for morrison or personal glory? in any case, i can see his committment to things, which is something worth praising.
got back ss cct today. and i scored....... 13!!!! which is really quite good :) after school, i was planning to stay back with jack to do the ss project, but in the end, we decided not to do it. ended up going to play soccer with mr cheng for like 3 hours. we played the sec 4s later (we were a whole team of sec 3s) and got pwned like siao. haha, but was really quite fun, since i havent really played soccer since last year's interclass. maybe i'm just too affected by what happened last year.
i'm going training tmr, though still not sure whether i'm jumping on sunday. think i'll ask mr quek and mr lim tmr.

"do you realise we almost nvr talk in real life?" someone said this to me. i'll make it a point to correct this :)

2008-05-14T20:40:00.000+08:00

i just found out that zhi you guy, that sec 2 william hung who sang the eiffel tower song for his prefect campaign, is in ben's class, which is damn damn sad. and ben always bullies him, tsk tsk wad a big bully for his size :P

today was quite a slack but fun day. in the morning, java and brandon had their talent showcase! java sang "lao shu ai da mi" and he zao-siaed (voice cracks) within seconds lol. brandon tried to sing "you raise me up", which is our class song, and he was like murmuring the words dully. kinda boring, was hoping he would zao sia too XD. i'm pretty sure, everyone wasn't really interested in his singing, but was all waiting for him to zao sia XD anw, i took both performances down and will try to post them tomorrow, but does youtube accept .3gp videos? O.O i'll try tomorrow
had ambassador series which lasted almost the whole morning. and daron got a lil pissed coz roy, ben nah and me kept talking so much, and i kinda leaked stuff about joe to roy. sorry daron! XD i just kinda miss joe ^^
p lim didn't come today, so after recess, i had 3 free periods all the way to end of school!! no maths and no RE, super SHIOK! so during the first period of RE, was playing the game that the other indonesian group (also under p lim) did for their project. i played ernest 3 times and.............. lost all 3 times T.T the game's pretty interesting, something like a new twist to chess, where there are only 5 pieces (warlock, bowman, aeronaut, some piece which name starts with s --> job is to heal, and lastly copycat, YES COPYCAT). spent quite long understanding how the game works though, but after awhile, it got quite fun but i think the game would be more fun if it was on a digital interface. after lunch, went off to the library with ernest, and we saw aloy there and chatted with him for the whole hour. and aloy still DOES NOT have a single strand of hair on his legs or arms, which is damn sick. ernest explained some cheem scientific thing about pheromones and that girls get attracted to boys because of some smell from these pheromones that come from the hair on the legs/arms, really explains why aloy always so despo for girls :)
ponned training today cause of my injuries, my knees still hurt like hell and my thighs too, everytime i sit down, i can feel the pain. i realised, when your planning to pon cca, somehow on that day, everyone will come and find you and ask whether you're going for cca O.O i'm still worried about this sunday, because in my condition now, i really cant jump... haiz
that's all, and i think i'm gonna appear offline again, or else ben chin's group might suffer for their social advocacy. so guys, these few days i'll probably be appearing offline at times, so can just talk to me, cause i'll definitely be at the com.

i've been letting chances slip through my fingers
and i think i'm losing all hope.

2008-05-13T17:55:00.000+08:00

p lim NEARLY got so angry that she refused to teach us today, because of somebody's itchy mouth but i'm happy that she didn't catch me for my hair XDXD i've been failing for weeks,
chem was stupid cause now i owe mr koh 20 pushups just for going into the lab 3 seconds after he came in =.= and i'm starting to worry for myself sitting beside zi heng during lab stuff, haha. i think, coz of him, mrs lim (bio teacher) now has a REALLY bad impression of me, and he nearly burns me in chem. i still remember how he made his and my chest tighten so much that we were breathless, with some gas or something. that was seriously scary. no 1 dangerous person to sit beside during lab stuff.
after school, went to gym together with jim. jim is seriously very strong in his arms, he totally suaned me in all the arm workouts, but well, he was a thrower = arm power. i think, if he works a little hard on his legs, and his technique and confidence, he'll be really quite fast. jiaxuan ponned and daniel chander came. man, that guy is strong. i think he's got good genes, heard he has greek blood right? apart from that, wang kwan challenged me to doing the max weight for the pushing-the-board-with-your-legs machine, i managed to do one only T.T
today's the 13th, so that means my spikes are coming any day now! really looking forward to it.
that's all for today, im still piled down with lots of homework...

2008-05-12T20:50:00.001+08:00

don't really feel like posting cause i'm disappointed in myself.
damn screwed up day, i screwed up chem, screwed up 2.4, screwed up my knees = screwed up sunday's all comers, and worst of all, i didn't even get any close to solving what i talked about in ytd's post. and how am i going to tell mr quek that i cant go for sunday's all comers because of my knees, when he has been expecting so much of me, esp for this sunday??
i'm a failure.
today, during CLE (or should i say chem?), mr koh was talking about mrs tay, and he said something that I thought was really meaningful. if we don't give mrs tay a chance, how can she be able to teach us properly? and then i was thinking, ok, maybe i'm just not handling the problem i was talking about in the previous post properly. even ben chin could tell that something was going on/wrong regarding this issue, and he asked me about it on msn. somehow, it feels like a repeat of history, something similar happened in sec 1, and i didn't handle it properly, and now it's like a test for me again, but this time i don't want to make the mistake like i did in sec 1.

just hope tmr will be better and btw, happy birthday roy! will get you a present tmr ^^

2008-05-11T17:04:00.000+08:00

The End by Dev

I turn the corner, and there you are,
While we both pretend not to see the other.
We keep walking, our eyes straight ahead,
And I'm grateful, as we pass one another.
We were best friends for one year,
A year of laughter, a year of tears.
In the short time of bliss,
We had promised to be friends for years.
But those years' have now been altered,
And the friendship has lasted just once.
I know that it is the end,
This is a friendship that will not be won.
You don't understand why it ended,
Or that I didn't want it to.
But sometimes in life,
You have to do what you have to do.
This was one of those cases,
I could no longer call you my friend.
I now know it can never go back,
And I have to realize, this IS the end.

when i chanced upon this poem, i was OMG. the first few phrases really describe what i'm going through right now, with someone in my class (guess all you want). i wanted to post about this few days ago, but was delayed cause i spent very long searching for nice blogskins XD. anw here's the story :
it all started when this person started suanning me about this girl (girl is irrelevant so don't ask me about her). well, i was definitely pissed, since he got a bit overboard. This person then apologised to me in his personal msg, "SORRY DEDRICK I WONT SUAN YOU ABOUT XXX ANYMORE" wow at the caps, dunno if that meant he was shouting or trying to show me he was really apologising, but anyway, i did see it even though i appeared offline for unrelated reasons. the next day, he asked me whether i saw it, then i ignored him. few days later, this person changed his personal message once more to "eh dedrick seriously i'm damn sorry". fine, this is very sincere, i stopped being angry at him when i saw this message. however, when I go online, this person doesn't come and say sorry to me directly, which makes it very hard for me to talk to him too. how am I going to tell this person that I'm not angry at him? I can't possibly say "I forgive you", it sounds like i think i'm some higher being. this person avoids me in school too, and in situations where he can't avoid, he just daos, so how am I supposed to go and get him to talk? is he afraid that i'll get angry if he comes to talk with me? i cant find an answer to that. Well, i'm quite sure I won't, instead I'll be relieved because it'll solve this whole thing.
anyone got a solution? --> tag in my tagboard
in any case, i'm hoping i'll solve this tomorrow. i WILL.

it does feel awkward to break a silence that has been held for weeks though.

2008-05-10T22:45:00.000+08:00

Never Again by Kelly Clarkson

i just love this song

2008-05-10T19:32:00.000+08:00

i actually wanted to set up this blog a few days ago, but i guess i delayed it for awhile because i took very VERY long searching for blogskins XD
anw spent the whole day stoning at home, and finished the whole series of 我的野蠻奶奶. i just couldnt resist watching the whole series for the 3rd time after it started showing on tv.
and calvin khor offically owes me S$165.40 and david owes me S$67.80 for the spikes. AND the spikes haven't arrived yet, wonder when they will? O.O
and i finally found the death note song i've been looking for for ages! anyone who wants to hear it, it's the first song in my music playlist --> scroll down a bit and look right at the Entertainment section
btw, happy b'dae celestine! hope you have a great year ahead :)

2008-05-10T18:14:00.001+08:00

hi guys! i decided to set up a blog again, after so long XD (really hope i don't let this blog die in the future though)
so, tag all you want! :)