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guess i can say one of the problems is settled. teng chuan and i went to find mrs tan during recess today. in the end found ms ruhana and talked to her instead. we apologised and she told us that we should have stopped the sec 1s from playing in class and that we should go talk to the sec 1s about it. real nice of her to not scold us badly or something. i was expecting something quite bad. anw at least i can take a load off my shoulders now.

as for the other problem, it's still a heavy load on my shoulders. it's holding me down so much i desperately need to breathe. nowhere near solving it, and i fear that it's going to stagnate after the weekends. i know dragging it will not do any good, it makes everyone more dao-ish against each other and eventually everything becomes cold. lost. and the regret will bug me for ages.
but i want to do a personal apology and explain myself. i know that only a personal face-to-face apology will do it. and i admit i'm still a tad bit hoping that he will come and shout things out at me or something. it'd be easier to settle things after that. but despite that, i did try to search for an opportunity today. but it wasn't a good one. i was hoping too that he would walk past me like what happened in the past few days but i guess, sometimes the more you hope of accomplishing something, the more you won't. and honestly, i fear that it won't bring about any good results. what if he just daoed me and walked away? what if he still remained pissed at me and showed signs of hating me already? and signs of not being bothered anymore ever?
and the weekends aren't gonna do any good. it jus means that there's more chance of it stagnating. and like i said, i still feel that doing it face-to-face is the best solution. so should i still try again on monday? or should i do it in the weekends? will i be able to do it well? and not screw it up? should i unblock him now? but if i unblock him now, and he continues to dao? should i then talk to him first? what if he does talk to me after i unblock him? is apologising over msn really what i should do?
somehow it just feels to me that apologising and talking over msn about such a thing won't make any change to it.

my mind's in a whirl. this afternoon, during gymming, i realised that gymming was just like drinking beer, i can just put my mind at rest and just focus all in lifting the weights. it seems to cloud the stress i've faced with this problem.
it hurts lesser to ache physically.

Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D